| Friday, March 31 |
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[just hold on there] this is what i really want now = enjoy life while it last. whatever things that i want right now, almost all i've already got it. =) dad said he wanna upgrade my broadband connection from 512k to 10mbps... but guessed what, fuckers from singnet said that we couldn't upgrade yet cos we still have 5more months left in our current contract. fucktards. 21more days and im out of this country and i will be one year older. and sorry guys, i couldn't upload the videos of us jumping off to the deep blue sea from the kelong.... sian. i wanna try snorkelling one day. im planning to invite my buddies to come over my place... perhaps next 2weeks okay brudders? then we can play my xbox360 all night long. swee bo? |
| Tuesday, March 28 |
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[and i grieved] man, its been quite sometime that i've time for myself. its almost 4am now and i've just finished watching 2episodes of smallville that i've downloaded. Smallville 100th episode was the best ever screened episode i've seen. the episode was balanced with perfect emotions from a part of being happy and being sad. Yes, superman's father died. sad lo. and the songs featured in that episode was good. peter gabriel - i grieve. it was only one hour ago it was all so different then there's nothing yet has really sunk in looks like it always did this flesh and bone it's just the way that you would tied in now there's no-one home i grieve for you you leave me 'so hard to move on still loving what's gone they say life carries on carries on and on and on and on the news that truly shocks is the empty empty page while the final rattle rocks its empty empty cage and i can't handle this i grieve for you you leave me let it out and move on missing what's gone they say life carries on they say life carries on and on and on life carries on in the people i meet in everyone that's out on the street in all the dogs and cats in the flies and rats in the rot and the rust in the ashes and the dust life carries on and on and on and on life carries on and on and on it's just the car that we ride in a home we reside in the face that we hide in the way we are tied in and life carries on and on and on and on life carries on and on and on did I dream this belief? or did i believe this dream? now i can find relief i grieve. |
| Saturday, March 25 |
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GRADUATE LO! and i did better this time round... at least i saw a few B grades on my core subject. mission accomplished! suuuiiiiii!!! =) =) =) =) =) (= (= (= (= (= now, its time to wait for NS letter!!! |
| Friday, March 24 |
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[people's mindless game] things will never always go right. it's either you fuck it up, or the things that happened around you, will fuck u up directly or indirectly.. an example; i was on shift today. two regular ang moh customers ordered their drinks. then, while waiting, they went browsing for the retail goods. as they waited too long for their drinks, they leaned onto the retail shelves... few seconds later, one of the shelf gave in to their weight and a lot of the retail items dropped and a few broke. guess what, they sucked up their pride by saying its not their fault. they blamed us that we didn't put a sign saying that they were not allowed to lean onto the shelfs!! ridiculous isn't it? see, they fucked things up and at this kind of situation, it fucked me up too(i was angry with their claims). they just left without paying for the broken items. then i was having a conversation with two local customers who saw the incident, they were mad about it too. see, things that you fucked it up, will also affect people around you without you knowing. oh btw, two days ago. i was at plaza singapura. standing under a tree while smsing, suddenly, i felt a liquid dropped on my left shoulder..... SUIIII!!! brown colour bird shit some more and it was a lot la!! like around 1ounce of it dropped on shoulder.... lucky i was wearing black. and i should have bought 4D ah.. lol lately, i've been emotionally aggressive. don't know why but i guess it could be the workload. i've been working really super a lot. everyday work non-stop. i really really wanted to club. life's so dull that i badly needed some entertainment. but what happened last night really made me feel so fucked up that i don't wish to club at all anytime soon. im a abit pissed this person actually assumed that i might be blaming my best buddy for the misunderstanding? fuck no. and like i said, when u fuck things up, yes it affects people around you. anyway, fuck it. i never hold grudges towards things like these. shit happens. have a nice day! |
| Wednesday, March 22 |
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[am i that so insignificant?] my short weekend getaway to a kelong near sibu island for a fishing trip was fun. though we didnt get the real big fish, we enjoyed ourselves. things that we did. 1)learnt how to tie a fishing line knot. 2)learnt how to be patient. 3)get ourself sunburn. (i got myself a really bad sunburn.... sigh) 4)smoke cheap ciggarettes (malaysia ciggarettes damn cheap mah) 5)gamble(mahjong & blackjack) 6)eat 7)jumped off from kelong into the sea(4m high). and the kelong is in the middle of the deep blue sea with strong current(scary lo) i'll post the pictures and videos soon yeah. now, i wanna say something that been bothering me lately. and if she's reading this, good then. i've been loving her from the day i knew her. of cos things didnt go well for us. we went hiatus from each other for a while... then came back and meet up. but it has always been me trying to make u realise that how i tried to salvage our friendship. but recently, it made me think that how i contrast you with my own beliefs. like i said in my previous entry, i advise people not flirt or you could have done it unintentionally by asking a person who's attached, out. but still, when i got to know that you went out with a big group... then a guy whom you know that he's attached, send everyone home with his car... then u were the last one.... but you guys didnt went home. instead, both of you sat in his car and talk. then suddenly, you guys were kissing. then it strucked your mind that he's attached and his gf is your friend? wtf? you should realise that in the first place, that he offered to send you home, make sure u go home. keep that in mind that he's attached. how could you in a split second suddenly allowed him to even kiss you? you should realise that there's a 'SPACE' between you and him. i know you regretted about this incident. but i can't help to think that you could have done more to stop all this from happening. im confuse about your principle of 'friends'.... the boundary principles of your friendship. and again, another case, your neighbour is offering you to go out for a night riding in his car... you know he's attached... having a rocky relationship with his gf and his gf hates the fact that he's seeing you eventhough as a friend. and he knows that his gf hates it... but still he's asking you out? what a fucker. and sorry to say to you all my reader, that this guy is my very old kindergaten friend. but i fucking hate his guts. seriously, what would you feel if you know that your gf or bf is going out with another person of a different sex eventhough as a friend.... definately, there's a tiny bit of your heart aching. can't you realise that you are breaking someone heart girl? you creating yourself a sin! i know in your previous relationship, your ex bf had done this to you... but it doesnt meant that you can do this to other people. this kind of situation is not a cycle nor karmic! but again, who am i to stop your from doing all this? but i need to tell you this, i hope you would change for the better and put your priorities first. why is truth so hard to find in this world? |
| Tuesday, March 14 |
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[where did it go?] just two days ago, i saw this mat friend of mine which i have not seem him for a couple of months. his first words was... 'sial la, kau dah gemuk eh!' transalation: 'wth, you became fat!' that's so depressing to hear lo. i knew i put on some weight. shit la, im just going to cut down on my diet. i only ate once today. should stop drinking the fattening stuff from starbucks. i have two targets now. just keep on working everyday and cut down on my diet. |
| Saturday, March 11 |
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I'm really confused. Life is not easy. Feelings are complicated. Believing in someone is not easy as trust is hard to develop. Loving someone is always a difficult task. I've always love that person and that feeling never went off. Though its been too long that i'm like this, but never i felt bored of it. Because, some things are always worth waiting. We all have secrets; which are never meant to be told or known to all. I know, i've always been secretive about my love life in my blog. Sorry, such issue shall never be transparent. Because, sometimes, the truth hurts. Like what they say, 'What mama doesn't know, won't hurt.' I would want to advice to all my friends, if you're serious with your life and the person you love, never ever break her/his heart by flirting around. And if you're single, don't ever go out with a person who're attached. This world ain't perfect, shit happens. Sometimes i do believe in karma; what goes around, comes around. anyway, i was awake since friday morning at 5.15am. now its saturday 3am. on friday i was working from 7am to 4pm.. went out to town. then went out with another person and again, then went out with another person. and here i am right now, just got back home and i couldn't sleep. and guess what, i need to wake up at 6.30am later and go to work again. hero! disclaimer: sorry if i type wrongly or if the words are not correct because im half dead now. |
| Wednesday, March 8 |
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[as promised] yo! wow, last weekend was really an enjoyable one! prom, then club. go home at 5.30am. slept for few hours.. wake up and went to jb. at jb, from 6pm to 11pm we went to play lan games. went for our dinner at tree top restaurant.. nice food and the place we ate was really on the tree.. then continued playing lan games from 1am to 5am. then go JJ house, talk cock till 6am+ then we slept. JJ mum was so nice. cos when i slept, i didnt have any blanket... suddenly when i was asleep.. i felt someone putting a blanket on top of... gosh, it was his mum. so nice of his mum. anyways, slept for 4hours, then woke up.. eat lunch and continued playing lan games from 2pm-7pm. HOLY COW, i tell you, i got sick of DOTA liao.. cannot play that game for a long time already.. im sick of it. haha then had dinner and watch movie called Heirloom. FUCKED UP SHOW. DO NOT WATCH IT... cos i slept 10minutes during the show. so anyway, as promised, pictures from the prom night. for now, i'll just post the prom pictures... next entry will be the pictures i took during clubbing. Peh Thong Kiat aka Javier and me.  kenneth and me  Uncle Kenneth(he looks like uncle with the specs. lol!) and javier.  emily and me  me and eelynn  me, wei loon and emily  presenting you the two person who can never get along well, if put in a room, i think they'll bite each other off. lol! but they look nice together for that day!  meiqi (you're beautiful) and me  melissa and me  me and lijuan  evon and me  serene and me  me and huishi  ziwei and me  karen and me 
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| Sunday, March 5 |
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[eventhough we're gone, the spirits still continues and it shall live forever] the event last night, was really cool. it was so called our last official gathering as a class. well, a few of us were lucky including me. i won a lucky draw!! wanna know the funny part? my lucky draw number was 114 and peh thong kiat was 115. number 114 and 116 were picked as winners for prizes. but 115 WAS NOT PICKED! hahahaha!! pity that guy, if not you could have got 10bux from me too? :p wow, my classmates are lucky too, one of them got a brand new printer and a 2gb ipod nano. cool stuff! but i guess i was the luckiest. because you know why? i had almost 30people going to club with me last night. big group eh? but there was still some more... 6of my own friends was there too... and friends of one of my friends came too.... total ard 40 of us? i brought virgin clubbers too and they enjoyed man! i tell ya, cocolatte made alot of money last night. half of the dance hall were occupied with NP students. Logistic Management students KICK ASS AY! NICE! alright, i gotta pack up and head to johor bahru. i'll be back with loads of pictures, this i promise you. later! |
| Saturday, March 4 |
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[the days are over] man, thats it. its all over. 2years and 8months in poly life. my education life have never been better than poly life. the friends u made, the joy u created, the memories to be remembered, its all priceless. i'll make sure i take dozens of photos tmr during prom. must take photo with every one of them.. including our yogi bear lecturer. i screwed up todays paper again. lol. but i think i can still pass. anyways, this morning, i had a conversation with someone whom i lost in touch for a few months. she left because of certain reason and she need to get away from me so that reason will fade away. i didnt know about the reason until today. but im glad she told. well, i had the same reason too. =) i have a slight problem now.. my dad is reluctant to let me fly to bangkok on april when i told him that im booking my flight this coming tuesday. sigh. SHIT LA, WHY MUST TEMASEK BUY THAT SHINCORP IN THAILAND?? AND CAUSE ALL THIS PROBLEM?? but its a good thing, cos it shows that our country is damn rich to splurge $1.5billion dollar on it. =) anyways, photos below for you to look at. enjoy. my classmates at melissa's birthday chalet.  MY BEST BUDDIES IN POLY!!! YOU GUYS ROCK! thats me on the left, PEH THONG KIAT aka Javier in the soccer jersey (he was having a really bad hangover when we took the photo)... kenneth wong weng keong standing at the back.. and wong kim hong on the right.  Me and my sugar baby(eelynn)!!  eelynn and kenneth!!! both just woke up... sleepy heads. duh. 
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