| Monday, May 30 |
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everytime when im down..... i'll just look up to this wood piece that can swing... with a sentence carved to it - 'Don't Worry, Be Happy'.... it will just bring smile to me. a moment of happiness that could actually make my worry go away for a while. its a wood piece that fina got me for my birthday. very thoughtful of her. thanx buddy. im like so busy nowdays. attachment, part-time job, my own social life. i can balance it but it can be really tiring. i hope all my friends are doing okay. feeling better than ever. having good life. and i hope talib is doing fine and recovering from his 'loss one'. alright people, gotta go for now. will come back here one day and blog again alright? take care for now. later! |
| Sunday, May 29 |
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at this very moment of time. i really feel like giving up on everything. i feel really dejected and useless. i dont know if she still loves me. but i do know that deep inside me, i really feel for her. eventhough i already saw her true colours, i can still accept her as she is. may god bless me. so long and goodnight! |
| Thursday, May 26 |
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[its a pity] i hate to make painful decisions. imagine u have cash in your hand and you've been dying to buy something. and even if your dad would love to help you buy the thing, you have to refuse it. for the past 20years, i had my dad to feed me. i think its time for me to be fully independent? hmm its hard, really hard decision to make. im such a lousy son. i almost made my decision to buy a new mp3 player this weekend at the creative warehouse sale. how pathetically i sound, i do have money but shit, i have other commitments such as my upcoming partnership business with a friend. i need to save some money to invest in it and for my business trip on july. but somehow, a new mp3 player for me?? hmm neccessity versus luxury <---(economics)...... hmm. i SHALL NOT succumb to temptations. futhermore, if i dont spend the money away, i'll be happy. seriously happy because it has always been my goal to save money for the past few years. lol! im sorry to let you all read my blog about me bragging over money matters. its going to be the weekend again soon!! im taking a half day leave tmr. need to go back to school and FINALLY meet the school director(he's half bald btw)... and if tmr i come back to school just to meet him to shake hand... i gonna fucking slap his bald head. riiiite. =) |
| Tuesday, May 24 |
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i really want to get some good food. im sick over rice with gravy dish + vegetables bcos i've been having those kind of meal everyday at work. maybe a fish & chip at fish&co will be lovely. and yeah, i've not been eating my favourite dry fishball noodle for a VERY long time. its really hurts when you start thinking over a person... on how you met that person, spent some time together, talking on the phone, having both of your favourite dish together.... its nice to reminisce but it hurts to be reminded that its all over. you know, the new school term just started today. my god, there will be like alot of FRESHIES - year 1 students. damn, im missing alot of new people just bcos im having my attachment. this suck big time. my parents are going to seremban this weekend. party at my house anybody? wah PERFECT TIMING TO GO FOR CLUBBING THIS WEEKEND! hahaha! |
| Monday, May 23 |
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[changes which i dont wish to see] my dear good friend, talib, is not the same person i used to know. stay strong dude. dont think to much my friend. |
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[i remember waiting for you to call, but there wasn't anything for me] saturday: slept over at bud's place to watch the fa cup final. it was a gruesome 120minutes match. man utd really deserved to win, but like what mat always say, 'the ball is round, anything can happen.' i tried to call her but she was already asleep. anyway, put aside those painful feelings, the four of us went to watch dvds at buds room. was cosy and dark. first dvd to watch was 'TEAM AMERICA', fuck yeah the movie was crappy but alot of funny shit and qoutations. e.g, 'i'll cut off your balls and shove it up your ass. so the next time you shit, you shit all over you balls!' and 'i'll poke alot of holes on your dick and so the next time when you pee, you pee all over the place in different directions.' LAUGHING OUT LOUD! and we left his place at bloody 6.30am cos he need to go for the big walk. sunday: played street soccer. i really think like once in a while if we play street soccer, confirm we get into fights. there's these saying, 'when you're with your gang, you act big. when alone, your ball shrinks.' remember my friends, whenever you get into trouble with this 'gangsters' just be calm, be polite to them. dont offend them. let them be, but if they were to touch you, dont protect yourself man.... THIS IS WHY I FUCKING WANT TO BE A PERSON WITH AUTHORITY! heh. back home, i watched this dvd title, Hotel Rwanda. it was in the movies 2months ago. it's a true story based on some african country(i forgot what it was)... they were having a civil war. lots of massacre. the movie was totally about killings, bribery, corruptions. sigh. cruel world out there yeah? |
| Saturday, May 21 |
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[where did you run to, so far away] well, weekends are here again! i love blogging during the weekends. i am suppose to meet up with my classmates on saturday night at some pub.. but apparently its cancelled... was quite dissapointed cos two weeks ago... all of us was like so 'ONZ!'.... but look what happened? i almost thought that it totally destroyed my plans for the long weekend, but lucky i found a new plan which is to sleep over at bud's place, watch the MATCH OF THE SEASON, the fa cup final (man u versus arsenal). then watch dvds all night long. haha. need to save money! i want to buy a new mp3 player. look out for the creative warehouse sale end of the month my friends! 27-29may! The song below, it was featured in one of the smallville episode when clark was dancing with lana during their prom night. cool stuffs. i really wish one day that i have a prom date and will be dancing with my dream girl. heh. cheers to you all! Lifehouse - You and Me. What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you There's something about you now I can't quite figure out Everything she does is beautiful Everything she does is right What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive |
| Wednesday, May 18 |
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[feel me] yes, i've been having flu the past 4days. and the people in my office, one by one getting mc. today, 3ppl from my department are on MC. haha! not my fault. its the weather! with this kind of health, it makes me wonder alot of things especially about her this past few days. how i wish i didnt hurt her feelings that much. i regretted my actions. i tried running away. but i could only survive for a month. memories start to flood in. the way i talked to her nowdays was kinda sarcastic. is it because of anger? i dont really think so. i have no idea. and again, i regret my actions. i learnt one thing. running away is actually a good thing on certain aspects. it cools down the situation. but, it will leave both party confused and lonely. later! |
| Monday, May 16 |
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you know what. im sick. i just put down the phone from talking to the minah like after 2 months we've havent talk to each other.... sigh. im suppose to sleep at this hour.. but hell, im sick and im gonna take an MC later. to talib: if you need a crying buddy. im here man. i just cried an hour ago. sounds gay but heck. at least i felt better. and i need more of it. lol. i repeat this again, it sounds gay but heck la. anyway. got to get some rest. later! |
| Sunday, May 15 |
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[sometimes, things are better off untold] having good time with friends really make your time pass by really fast. and there goes my weekend. back to reality again tmr. today was fun. had loads of laugh over pronouncation of some japanese food. well i was supposed to have a breakfast with someone in the morning, but had to skip it cos i need to go jb with my friends. they wanted to go earlier. anyway, usual stuff we do at jb. 1) eat chicken rice and yong tau fu at the Foodjunction at City Square. 2) either drink milkshake from mcdonalds (they are such a rarity items in Singapore OKAY!) or buy coffee bean drinks at City Square. 3) head to holiday plaza and shop for our favourite cheap goods. DVDs. so yeah, the four of us all together bought like 25titles of DVDs and pc games. and today was my FIRST time eating sushi. we ate at Genki Sushi. somehow the name of certain japanese dish really cracked me up. such as 'Spider Maki'. in malay, 'Maki' means Cursing. so, we were laughing... until talib said, 'Spider maki coming up, FUCK YOU!' hahahahah all of us laughed like hell lor. i laughed till i had tears on my eyes. cannot tahan... raw food is alrite la... quite nice. WASABI was kinda cool. wasn't that hot until if u eat it like pure WASABI without any black sauce. then we got back to SG, slacked at causeway point and woodlands regional library. i pity talib. he's going through alot of shit this week. hmm. anyway, me bud and talib, we sat down. had a normal boys chit chat. was kinda fun talking over such stuffs. we shared things we did during the past that none of us knew about it. so thats how we ended our day/weekend. |
| Friday, May 13 |
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im alrite now. having fun again. i guess the girl who gave out a loud but cute laughter when i did a blooper while playing pool made my day last night. =) if only i had the courage and get to know her... and lina made me realise something valuable and another reason why i was kinda mad with myself because i was very very tired. really felt like giving up. she said something like this, 'even if friends whom you've helped and never come back, feel happy that at least you helped them to be who they are now and where they stand...' thanks for the advice yeah girl? the past two days at work, i kept on doing my colleague works. its not that bad after all, at least i learnt something new... except the 3hours of data entry almost make my eyes pop out. i want to learn how to prepare/send shipping documents and learn about the seaway bill. and also wanna learn how to do order processing.... anyhow, THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY! its the weekends already. i was listening to perfect 10 while at work... and there was an advertisement and it ended like this, 'kotex, protection for teens!'..... and i was like talking to myself, 'DUDE, did u hear wrongly?' i felt like telling them to rephrase it, i feel so offended. hahaha! protection for teens? come on! its for girls/womens and not specifically for teens! screw it! enjoy your weekends! cheers! |
| Wednesday, May 11 |
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[this can't be right] im on the verge of giving it all up now. i wonder if ever one day i just dont care about friends around me. how fucking despair they are, i just wont care. or maybe i should be calculative. maybe i'll help those who did helped me before. i dont know why im in this state now. im not okay. maybe i feel this way cos friends whom i've helped before suddenly like dissapear away once they found what they want. fuck it. im suppose to meet my classmates on 21st may at some pub at marina. i dunno if i should go cos its like FA CUP FINAL on that night. its man utd versus arsenal man. below is my new song. i composed it like 3weeks ago. izan - you've made a mistake Get up, come on. Why are you scared? even if you pray for the stars they are too far to shine for you i left my heart open, just for you to fill it in, but you just dont understand; you left it hurt and broken. i've made a point to burn all our pictures i will try to forget the time we had together but never will i forget what you've done. at the end of the day, and when you sat in regret thinking what you have done, remember, you are my past. even if i found you in a lost and found, i'll pretend i forgot your name. you've made a mistake. |
| Sunday, May 8 |
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[Weekends, quiksilver t-shirt, YKK & Edward] firstly, i would love to thank the girls from my class for the quiksilver shirt as my birthday present. its lovely! i never have a black quiksilver shirt before. so that marks my first quiksilver shirt! thanks girls. my weekends are over just like that. i made myself a new record on saturday. i was at town from 1pm-3.30am. 14hours++ in town is crazy shit man. i had lunch@cafe cartel, took neoprints@ cineleisure with my classmates. imagine 9of us. we cramped all together. lol. after that, played pool at cineleisure. then all went home and i met ji chuan and josh. three of us slacked around 2nd round bar at far east for a couple of hours before we head to chinablack. i even managed to watch chelsea versus charlton while i was in the bar. clubbing in chinablack was alrite... normal. but something happened which made me lose my mood. damn it. i got back home ard 4am. then i slept all the way till 2.30pm. at 4pm talib called me and ask me wanna hang out at clementi with him and edward and play pool? so yeah i agreed. and today for the first time in my life, i played another version of three man pool. fun le. kill each other ball. hahaha. after pool, we slacked. it was somehow a parting session cos edward is going back to indo and dunno when he's coming back. so we sat, drank bubble tea.. haha interesting stuffs and edwards is the most coolest indo guy i ever mix with. have all ever wondered you are wearing a simple yet an important brand almost everyday? sometimes you never notice these simple and yet an important brand. heard of 'YKK'? look at the zippers on ur pants, jeans, jackets... most of them have the YKK brand zippers... ever though of that? hahaha. we parted with edward by hugging each other till he ALMOST miss his bus. lol!! thats how my weekend ends. |
| Friday, May 6 |
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[its all good] life at keppel is getting better. im not sure of my position yet. im not sure who am i under. is it my supervisor or my assitant manager? my assitant manager, somehow, a big shot in our department... he's kinda good to me. i just finished up his project this week... the presentation well alrite i guess. i hope our customer will buy my ideas. =) two days ago my Laison officer(the lecturer in charge of me in this industrial-attachment-program) came to visit me. dont know why but i was kinda happy that he came. had chit chat session with him together with my assitant manager... see that, i think im under my assitant manager. im fortunate that my assistant manager took his time off from his VERY busy schedule to bring me down and fetch my lecturer for a chit chat. after we left my lecturer, he told me, 'come lets go jalan-jalan to 27,benoi sector(our ANOTHER warehouse)' and so he drove me there. before he orientate me on the warehouses there, he said, 'before we start anything, let me orientate you with the canteen first!' and hence, free drinks for me. power!! hahaha! i asked him with a diploma, what kind of job can i get in Keppel Logistic? once with diploma, i can get an executive job and then gradually, i'll be a manager after a few years. i love my life at keppel. at least i get along well with the guys there. can joke around already. =) sometimes, with this kind of motivation especially from a manager, it makes you have the drive to wake up every morning smiling and tell youself, 'hey lets go to work!' but still I FUCKING HATE WORK! hahahaha. there's this lady in my company who really look like a girl whom i used to date back last year. she had this perfect complexion and nice straight hair. you know i like girls with nice straight hair. and i will go like 'WOW! SHES HOT!'. but i heard she's married. nvm, its worth it if i am going to make friends with her which i think will possible happen if i got the guts to do so. i've like 18more weeks to go. i hope she take the same bus with me later at 7am to work. for now, its my time to go. So, Good night, Good night, you are embarassing me, you are embarassing you. lalalalalalalala~ |
| Monday, May 2 |
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im sooooooo tirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeed. i've been out from 7am-12midnite everyday from friday to saturday! lucky i didnt go chinablack on saturday.... josh was like begging me and jc to go... he was like so depesperate for friends to club with him. but wth, when he's in the club confirm he will be like finding girls and dance with them... haha. sunday was quite good. i had a soccer match against bishan RC team at toa payoh secondary school. we lead the game after like 10minutes of the game. soon the equalised.... we tried to contain and maintain the score throughout the first half. then on, the hell begun during the second half... the heat from the sun really drained us, the young men. those old guys from the opponent sure have the physical advantage over us. hence, the score was 7-1. damn it. then we went over to bud's place, slacked, watch some japanese movie called 'battle royal'... its like the version of Lord of the Flies; students killing each other... only one sole survivor get to go home. anyhoooo, after bud's place, we went to visit his dad at the hospital. we ended our day with dinner at west coast and playing LAN game at ginza. what a cool boys out day. lol. and here i am, stuck at home all day. fucking bored. anyway, i've promised eelynn to post the picture we took at pizza hut on friday. this is our combined pizza.  stuffed crust pizza.... nice.  eelynn's favourite food: calamari. no wonder she look like one. hehehe. just kidding!  okay, thats all for today folks. goodnight! |
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