| Saturday, October 30 |
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damn it, this is the second time i found a spider in my room. not small but big ones. like the size of a 5cent coin. i didnt kill it for your info but i trapped it into an envelope and threw it down from 10-storey with the envelope. hope it survived the journey down my block. hehehe :p god, i've been working the past 7days. i need a break man. im going to jb tmr finally!! hehe. got my pasport extended today. and i went to cut my hair today. sissy guys are always a good hairdresser. thats why i came back to make Alan, the hairdresser at jantzen saloon @ tiong bahru, to cut my hair.
finally i've watched Roadtrip dvd. fucking funny movie. there's some naked scene btw..lucky i watched it during the nite, if i watch it during fasting... die la die la...hahahaha. nabei, watching naked scene from that Roadtrip dvd just turn me on bcos the girls are damn hot! well, im not suppose to be turned on but wth dude, it aint my fault. lol. izan wont be here until sunday night. so take care you all. finch - letters to you. Can't u see, that i wanna be there with an open arms. its empty tonight and im all alone, get me through this one. do you notice.....im gone? where do you run to...... so far away. i want you to know that.... I Miss You. |
| Thursday, October 28 |
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hello. its been a few days since i blog. my blog layout is like so the very plain white.. very boring design. but nonetheless, at least i have place where i can update about myself to my friends. ah anyways, been working alot. i feel so tired. i thought of sleeping early tonite but wth, im stuck online trying to edit my blog's layout. uh anyways, i would like to say all the best to you guys who's having exams soon especially to the minah. =) im done with my exams, thats why im so relax now.
damn i miss her alot. =) cheers everybody. |
| Monday, October 25 |
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Yesterday was hell of a good treat for me. firstly, i just got one of my wish list item out cos its been granted. =) i was working in the morning yst till 2pm.. then went to westmall... then went to geylang serai... damn it, fucked up place to go every year cos its where all the malays gather... dad was so generous last nite. paid for my phone and bought me the most expensive baju kurong i ever had... 120bux. i dont know if 120 is expensive or cheap cos i only wear it once a year!! wth man... but its not in pink. he doesnt want me to wear pink baju kurong this year... maybe next year. ahh so sad... dat means i can only resort to pink shirts then.
ahh never mind, man utd won against arse-nal last nite which totally made my night. arse-nal can kiss their 49th unbeaten league games ass goodbye and never to smell or make it to 50consecutive unbeaten league record again. hmm, she seems so busy nowadays and i understand why. whatever it is, i'll be here for you if u ever need me. study smart k girl and make me proud. =) bless you. |
| Saturday, October 23 |
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Some f*cking advise: The reading material below might not be suitable cos izan have not been cursing for such a long time and its been a long time since he got pissed so bad. =)
BLOODY F*CK. this is the f*cking bad thing for a young man like me who haven't go NS: they bloody need to extend their f*cked up passport like every f*cking one or two year. and those clowns at the f*cking ministry-of-who-ever-control-this-passport-thingy who implement this kind of f*cking rule are f*cking bastards. im so so so f*cking ready to go out to meet my mum and the rest at jb for a dinner at mutiara hotel which is beside holiday plaza... but then jeng jeng jeng... i checked my passport... and SHIT, the date of expiry: 10/14/2004. k*nina. ahh f*ck f*ck f*ck, there goes my wonderful and FREE dinner. why do we need a f*cking red colour passport damn it? im the citizen of the world. how i wish everything is free. damn you neptune!! now i have to stick at home with dad. look on the bright side izan, espn and channel 24 will be your friend tonite cos there's live SOCCER!!! never mind, i still have one more round next saturday. may god pardon me for cursing while im still fasting. bless you all. =) |
| Friday, October 22 |
| this is what i did today: slept from 6am+ till 3pm+. woke up for a while.. then at 4pm i slept again till 6.40pm. cool pig eh? sorry la, there's nothing much i can do when im sick and got nothing to do. this sucks. i hope i'll be okay soon cos i wanna go to work tmr morning. money money money =). then maybe i'll follow mum to jb in the evening if im feeling well. i think im going to sleep now.. very drowsy. take care ya'll. |
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take a look at this... too all my friends out there, this is for you. =)
cute right? =) |
| Thursday, October 21 |
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hey guess wat, i fast half day today. im down with the sickness. so wasted!! if only there wasnt a test today, i could fast till dusk... but i need medication... if not i wont survive today's test.... finally its over.. no more exams! so must enjoy my holiday till 6december then school start again *sigh*. well, im like a sick chicken today but still went to play pool AGAIN for 2 freaking hours... played quite okay today. ahh anyways, the OC today was pretty sad today. two goodbye scenes. yah, its really hard to say good bye to someone that u really love even as a friend. its just sad how anna left seth cohen because she wants to move on? wth. i dont think i can even bear to leave her like that. =)
i think im a full pledge pig now... im gonna slack, slack and slack. i think i'll visit the library and the gym one day. =) ah... i wanna compose a song.. hmm must find some inspiration and mood for it............... =) |
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Hey! One more paper to go baby!!! haha. after that, i can slack like a pig. actualli im already a half pig. =) uh anyway, im feeling that im gonna get sick real soon. haiz. argh, i was late again for yesterday's paper... 10minutes late.. all thanx to the traffic jam at jalan jurong kechil...and alot of people was late too.. among the 6late comers, i was the first to arrive. =)
things to do after my exam ends tmr: im gonna change my bedsheet and clean my room. its been like a pig sty for godknowshowlong. =) alrite mate, im outta here. meow meow. =) |
| Wednesday, October 20 |
| my incubus pic is back!! hahaha. thanks to aishah to host the pic for me... thank you so much girl. appreciate your help so much. =) photobucket kick ass! |
| Tuesday, October 19 |
check this out man. creative zen micro is so cool. nice range of colours. hmm, 6 more months to my birthday...*hint hint*. lolx!
i feel so lazy to study. wanted to go to bukit panjang plaza macs to study(cos relatives coming to my place for some family meeting) and at the same time drop by the bowling arena there to see my younger bro bowl. but my relatives went to my aunts place after i persuaded my mum to tell them go there cos i got exams tmr damn it! ah anyways, tonite, man utd versus sparta prague @ 2.30am. gonna watch no matter wat.. glory glory man united! take care everybody. |
| damn, www.incubuswallpaper.com site no longer exists or maybe coming soon..i do not know. there goes my previous blue incubus picture with chinese scripts on it which used to be on the top. i love it so much dude. meanwhile, im not gonna use anything. just gonna leave it blank. =)cheers everybody. |
| Monday, October 18 |
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aloha! i feel so relaxed. e-commerce paper was okay. but i really regret for not memorising it earlier. haiz, whats with me and totally last minute of revision? another lesson learnt today. ah, eventually i made myself pleased today. went to play pool @ mambo!! wahahahaha. i was fasting, but wth, we played loser punch. i didnt pay at all today except for the nine ball game i had with kenneth. i paid only $1.80 only... =) i'd like to thank peh thong kiat aka lucifer(riite, he action devil only but actualli loser child)(dont screw me ass for saying that to you, luci(now i think luci sounds like a dog name, dont u think so people?)) =) and kenneth for the game. i feel good cos its been 1week++ since i played pool and i feel that i had a few wonderful rounds. ahh... coolness.
last weekend was totally fantastic. even though it wasnt plan, but i had fun accompanying people around. and i really hate myself for getting flu when going out. i wonder, what if one day this world runs out of love. people start to kill each other(which already happenned), you wont see couples(aww god, i've been admiring them holding hands together...so sweet and please dont take them away), no sex anymore(dude, this is totally ridiculous!) and no make-outs in the movies anymore(shit, this is terrible, it will make the movie ratings go down and i love doing it =) ) cheers everybody! |
| Saturday, October 16 |
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damn it guys. im not emo. im strong and love the colour black, red and pink.
=) cheers everybody! |
| Friday, October 15 |
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1st day of fasting is always a tough one for me. gotta adjust my stomach but wth, i dont eat much nowadays.NO APPETITE! gotta cut that one nation tummy of mine and will try to shape it into a few nations. =) oh yah, i did curse while i was fasting today. the stupid ATM machine at gombak mrt station did not response when i was trying to key in my password. DAMN IT! ah anyways, im doing good and feeling okay.. wont think too much about it. i broke fast with my mum just now. we had some conversation about malay kids nowadays. then jeng jeng, coincidentally, 10minutes after i broke fast, my aunt(whose block is just next to mine) called and said a pri6 kid was knocking on her door crying and asking for help. so i went to my aunt's place.
a tale of a pri6 malay girl. she claimed she's an abused child. told her that i'll help to bring her to NPP to make a police report but she dont want. then i accompanied her back home. sekali i tot her dad was some child abuser. but no, he's a caring and responsible father. its the child who's problematic. imagine at 12year old, the girl who ran away from home for 2weeks. mixed with the wrong company. dad was the sole breadwinner and mum lying in hospital cos she lacks of white blood cell... god, thats like a typical problem family amongst the malay community. anyway, i tried my best to advice(chey, im like sooo bad in giving advice). but wth, the kid was like totally gone case and dont want to listen. im very thankful to god that i have mum and dad who's very supportive and thank god that i didnt choose the wrong path. allhamdulliah. =) btw, check my wishlist, i change a few of it. =) cheers everybody! |
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why is it so depressing?
btw, i will not curse for 30days. damn it, the muscles on my right kidney hurt so badly now. too much muscle contract i guess. |
| Thursday, October 14 |
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nowadays, im like totally emotional, thats why i included song lyrics that suits with what i feel even if u dont bother to read it. but this song below really suits me. today, i cried cos it hurts and it was depressing, i've learnt that over these years, good things doesn't last long. whatever happened between me and her, we will still be good friends. and remember, i will always be here for you, ah girl. =)
matchbook romance - my eyes burn My eyes burn from these tears You'd think I'd learn over these years Good things won't last forever So what the hell am I suppose to do You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you And you had it all anyway So take take everything and leave me scrambling Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place Tell me i'm wrong when I say I can't expect you to stay forever with me I live for that single moment I take back everything i've said You wore those words on your lips As if they meant anything anyway Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth It seems I do more harm than good And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this |
| Wednesday, October 13 |
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izan is not feeling well today and thus it makes him feel a lil' depressed. 19 years.... and still single.... what a record i have and still counting...none of my close friends can ever beat that except for those friends of mine who really cannot make it =) anyways, i kept thinking, am i not too good? am i a lousy choice or am i just a plain and boring person? well, its up to you to judge me, my friends.
btw, check out my blog, spot any changes i've made? hints: look at the top of the window and the texts on the bar below. =) cheers everybody. Thornley - Come Again As a child I found myself alone Always walking in defense Here they come again All I want to do was just get home But I'm pinned to the fence But here they come again I guess this is living Would you come again? Could you come again? I never quite feel right But I come again Would you come again? I still walk home alone |
| Tuesday, October 12 |
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today was helllll-of-a-goooooodddd-day. i was sitting by the beach again at wcp. hm i was having deep thoughts when i was at the pathetic beach(cos the beach was polluted) of wcp but it has WONDERFUL scenery! man i love wcp. anyways, i was thinking, have u ever been into the situation whereby u like this girl and another good friend of urs like her too. i dont know how it feels, but i think i can figure it out.
well, i think one day, one party or even both party might lose out. but i MIGHT, or i'd rather give in to the other party. would u rather choose a relationship with the girl(which may not last long) or your friendship(which is forever) with your good friend? my conclusion is that, I DONT THINK/WILL NOT give up. if you love the girl, why give up so easily? come on, keep ur dreams real! like i say, one day, either party or both party might lose out. give ur best shot and god knows where ur chance stand. this is life, u face a lot of challenges that u need to overcome. its not that i choose girl over friendship. but come on, in friendship, u can forgive and forget. well thats what i think. currently im addicted to usher feat alicia keys - my boo and destiny's child - bug a boo. =) i realised both songs got the word 'boo'. heh. cheers everybody! |
| Sunday, October 10 |
| man, im so freaking bored and lazy today. woke up at 11am to eat then sleep again till 3pm. tried to study but lazy. so i slacked and took a nap again. im such a lazy pig today. damn, tmr's my global logistic management test. the lecturer gave us tips but the tips was too wide for us to understand(cos most of the time during lecture, all never listen). damn it. im so lost now, i need guidance! sigh. |
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hello world. all my friends seemed to be busy studying. hmm o levels(been there, done that) coming up and end of semester exams for the poly students... good luck to u guys and to myself also =). perseverance and determination will make u go through o levels without any problems. well, i took 2months to prepare my o levels.
anyways, do you think i look like a sissy with the picture below? omg, after sometime looking at this picture, i think i look like a sissy. hmm some how, i was shy when taking pictures last time. but eversince i got a digicam, fuck, why should i be shy? pictures are suppose to capture ur happy moments rite? =) anyways, i've been listening to alot of r&b music now. currently addicted to usher feat alicia keys - my boo and incubus - leech. incubus - leech When you were down i always picked you up Why didn't I recognize that everything was never fine? I'm kicking myself that i shared spit with you So fuck yourself And fuck this bleeding heart of mine The ride's over, did you enjoy yourself? The ride's over, fairing well?! The ride's over, did you enjoy yourself? The ride's over, fairing well?! Not on my time |
| Friday, October 8 |
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my life was very simple today. quality management test was okay except that the stupid fu*king ch*ebye b*tchy teacher screwed my class up. firstly, she started 5minutes late(according to my watch). then she gave us the wrong set of table data. its supppose to be 't' table but she gave us 'f' table. but she gave us 2bonus point for her mistake which i dont think its ENOUGH! enuff complaining about the test, its over anyway. fuck QME and fuck miss dorris tan.
anyways, today, i walked back home from SCHOOL! left school at 8.45pm and reached back home around 9.35pm. i just feel like walking. like what she said, i need some solitude. oo yeah, it was fun being alone and walking on the pathway with dim street lights. this was qouted by brandon(vocalist for Incubus) during their concert in KL,march 2004. "everybody please take care of each other tonite. we are all brothers and sisters here. and if somebody falls, pick them up. somebody needs a hug, giv them a hug. somebody need a kiss, giv them a kiss. you know the drill." cheers everybody! im gonna close my eyes now. |
| i bet theres alot of people who loves long bus ride. i simply love taking bus 187. it really makes me reminisce the good times i had in secondary school. man... dont you guys love to be hug by a person whom u like....then when u are going home alone, u can smell that ur shirt smells of her perfume.. damn, i miss being hug! sigh. tmr is my quality management test. and im not even prepared. may the force be with me. =) |
| Tuesday, October 5 |
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how does it feel to spend your time with a person you like by the beach? imagine, you will be sitting by her side on the beach and have an open and casual conversation on one fine day during the weekdays when there's little people by the beach. Sometimes both will just go silent and have deep thoughts about each other. then u will start to sit close to each other and taking pictures on your digicam. snapping up pictures together with different pose. just u and her.
whilst the breeze blows ur hair, u just feel like want to laze. and then, u and her will lie down together on a mat by the beach. then both will just keep on talking and let the world revolve around you and taking pictures again. then, when u're bored, u might wanna find which part of her body is ticklish. so u will just rub her back and find which area is ticklish. dont you think spending your time by the beach is sooo much fun and meaningful? what if u sacrifice your school just to meet her and yet, both will have lots of fun by the beach. by the way, west coast park is a good place to slack around. cheers everybody! |
| Monday, October 4 |
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hooookay. its like 2.33am now. im suppose to sleep. i hope she wont be angry that im sleeping late. ;P. so yst, as usual on sunday evening i went to work. dont you all hate late comers? dont you think late comers they are like making the whole process slow? its like a bottleneck. wookay, im relating a real life situation by taking an example about industry processes in an assembly line. lets say in one station, if the worker is so freaking damn slow, the other process station before him will be affected. thus creating a jam/bottleneck traffic. i just hate people to attend or come late when they are suppose to come at the stated time. am i complaining too much? hmm.
well, my wish for now is that i want to get a better life. at least get a companion. i've learnt to save money nowadays. exams and fasting month is around the corner. hmm must be holy. will try to stop cursing and gambling(blackjack, daidee, loser punch). hahahaha. oo ya, last nite my dad suspected me betting on soccer games cos i was so excited when man utd equalise against middlesbrough(the game ended 1-1). then he saw me being so excited and he said,'nie mesti betting kan!?' and i was like,'no no no!! orang die hard man utd fan la ayah!'. lol! i did bet sometimes whenever im with friends. but wth, its been a long time since i bet on singapore pools. alrite, now i feel like sleeping. cant wait for tomorrow. cheers everybody! |
| Sunday, October 3 |
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firstly, i would like to say bon anniversary to badrulnizam! happy 19th birthday bro.
sadly i couldnt join them for movies cos i was having a gastric pain. anyway, it was a long day for me on 2oct. woke up 6am in the morning to meet a fren to pass something. then slept till 10am and then went to my old friend's house to help him move his stuff to his new place... oo well. i feel useless coming there cos there's too many of them helping out. all mats. the least i could do was just to relacs down there and help carry some stuff. then got back home at ard 2pm and went out again with kenneth to toa payoh. went to toa payoh sports hall to attend this french game called BOULES. its part of my french class curriculum. the game was fun la although its like a senior citizen kind of games but both me and kenneth got hook up with two chinese girls who's from NP also. me and kenneth paired up and versus the girls. wookay, the girls won the game btw. they were lucky! hmph! then, when i got back home after meeting the guys, i slept and had a very nice nice dream. in my dreams, i met 'the minah' at city hall with her cousin. then we all walked until the merlion at singapore river... i dreamt that i had a very good conversation with her. the funny part is that i dreamt both of us took an act cute picture... like the one people make a horizontal peace sign by the side of ur face... hahaha omg i can never imagine myself doing that. haha! and then, i dreamt we went to holland village coffee bean.. drinking tea lattes and had a good open conversation.... wah... thats like a very memorable dream i ever had. if only that happens, i'll be over the moon... i hope she knows that she will be loved. i wish this will never ends. i guess u are the one, girl. ps: pardon me for me long entry which i think there's alot of grammar mistake and typo error. well i've gotta agree my english sucks. but thats the best i could give at bloody 3.30am in the morning! cheers everybody! |
| Saturday, October 2 |
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hello there. the past two days was a very busy day for me. damn, its like i have very little time to spend on my bed slepping nowadays. hm, on the 30th of september, i was working... then stayed over at my workplace till 4am. from 1am-4am, around 7 of us gamble(black jack) inside our shop. i won some money anyway. haha.
here's a pic of us btw. then on the 1st of october was my MUM's birthday! so, the whole family went out for a dinner and movie. guys, please GO watch White Chicks. The movie is just so super duper funny. i was laughing most of the time throughout the movie. hm, next week is the last week of school. man, i feel that this semester is like im on the fast lane sia. i think my school will end at least 1 week earlier than the rest of the poly. damn, now then i realised that poly life is that damn short. 1 year and a semester goin to end soon just like that. hm, i simply love my classmates. we are like a united classmate i ever had. if wanna skip class, all skip together. if projects havent do, we will guide each other then ask lecturers to extend deadline. man, i cant bear to leave them! hahaha! cheers everybody! |
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