| Wednesday, June 22 |
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oh no! my mum's leaving for KL, AGAIN, tomorrow morning!! but this time dad's not going. he has to work. but mum going with my aunts.... 3days 2night.... this is bad... im like so busy working and i can't possibly wash my clothes by myself.... oh no.... im so dependent on my mum to wash my working clothes. nvm, i'll wash it during the night. dry it up the whole night.. then in the morning, i shall dump it inside the dryer machine and within 10mins, OLA, its dry up! BUT THE THING IS, i fucking forget how to fucking operate the fucking dryer machine. and two weeks ago i had difficulty in operating the washing machine. i filled up the washing machine to half load just to wash 3CLOTHES OF MINE. what a waste of water! hahahahaha. never mind, i shall do it slowly... my next update... i really want to talk about those people working at my attachment place... its going to be a long entry... VERY INTERESTING topic... it might occur to you one day. so look out for it in the next few days yeah. take care you all. |
| Tuesday, June 21 |
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[experience the warmth before you grow old] life's really full of ups and down. and here i am once again, im on my down side. loving someone really hurts. i tried running away from her for a certain a period of time but it didnt help much at all. the feelings are still there. its doesnt matter much if i dont get back the love..... but in my case... i wasnt even given the chance to love her. its always me who start the conversation in sms eventhough im on a very tight schedule nowdays. at least i took the time off to ask her how she is... but she RARELY do it lor. i dont know if she really care about me. i really miss her alot. but only if she still read my blog..... i dont know what else to say.... im really exhausted. you know how it feels like to think about her 24/7 even when u're sleeping, you'll be dreaming of her... and when u wake up, first thing that came up to ur mind.... its her again. sigh. can somebody shoot me at my head for me being emo tonight? im really addicted to 'the warmth' chorus part.... a song by incubus. chorus: So Down Let The World Bring You Down. Not Everyone here is that fucked up and cold. Remember why you came and while you're alive experience the warmth before you grow old. |
| Monday, June 20 |
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hey, notice any changes to my blog's layout. =) i really want to make you all feel the theme of incubus. nothing much to update today. the next three days i'll be damn busy. anyway, enjoy the song below. cheers. Incubus - The Warmth I'd like to close my eyes and go numb But there's a cold wind coming from The top of the highest high-rise today It's not a breeze cause' it blows hard Yes, and it wants me to discard the humanity I know Watch the warmth blow away Do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier? And leave in my wake a trail of fear? Or should I hold my head up high And throw a wrench and spokes by Leaving the air behind me clear? So, don't let the world bring you down Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold Remember why you came And while you're alive Experience the warmth before you grow old. |
| Sunday, June 19 |
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my weekends was quite alright i guess. had fun. taking pictures... looking at people... mrt rides.... here's a checklist on what i HAVE to buy at the end of the month. 1) book my airline ticket to bangkok. ($180) 2) buy my crumpler bag. ($170) holy shit. thats 350buckaroos. okay thats it all that i have to spend on. oh yah, one more thing! 3) 3days 2 night to Genting/KL with my friends..... (budget:$200) holy smoke, thats 550buckaroos total. damn damn damn. i would love to go genting. sick of the hot weather in singapore... i NEED BASKIN ROBINS ICE CREAM!!!!! I CAN HEAR IT CALLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!! HA HA HA HA HA. ICE CREAMMM!!!!! okay, today after work i met talib at Lot 1. played pool with him and then slack. we bought mcdonalds Extra Value Meal.. both of us.. and you know they have this promotion buy 2EMV and get 1EMV free... so yeah we had 2 Big Mac Meal and 1 Fish Mcdippers Meal. Holy cow, in the end we brought home our Big Mac Burgers... stomach filled up with french fries + sprite + coke. burps! yes, im soo sooo soooo looking forward for friday. anyways, here are the pictures we took on saturday night.... to fina... see how bud's hair is growing... long already lor... can become girl liao. (dats me on the right and bud on the left)  thats Recruit Nuh. how just book out after 2weeks of confinement. BOTAK HEAD! :p  okay, this is my favourite... his name is irwan but we call him I-R-wanker aka irwank (cos he's such a wanker, LOL!). he's the world's lamest guy but funny. 
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| Saturday, June 18 |
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[i want a job at the WAYNE ENTERPRISE @ gotham city][i want to save the city too!] batman begins is a nice movie. but quite wasted that we had to sit in the first two row. i thought the movie was 1hr 40minutes when i tried to book the ticket online... but my eyes played tricks on me... it was actually 140minutes (and only i got to realised that i mistook the timing when the movie ended BECAUSE WE MISSED THE LAST TRAIN HOME!) but anyway. it was kinda cool hanging out late with my close friends... we ended up quite late ard city hall area... and WE TRESPASSED the PADANG! the padang was all set up for the national day parade..... there was light test down there... it was actualli a restricted place la... but heck la. we took a picture at 7-11 marina square btw.... look closely at the two faggots in the middle.. the one in red and blue/white polo tee... the guy in red(kin) had his palm placed nicely on talib's lap... so sweet. and yeah, the rest of us are STRAIGHT OKAY.  okay, i was just kidding, all of us are STRAIGHT NORMAL PEOPLE OKAY. so yeah, i got back home at 3am... slept at 3.30am... another 3hours i had to wake up for my attachment work and here i am right now stoning. nabei turban! lucky at work today got something fun to do.... like read newspaper, play games.. bla bla bla.. ohh yah, look below for my office table and this scooter forklift that i love to ride around my workplace warehouse. look, its my table with a PC! its kinda big though. its all messed up with my bag, my windbreaker, bla bla bla...  my favourite toy. i love to ride this scooter around the warehouse... the warehouse size... i can roughly assmued its as big as 1 & 1/2 of standard soccer field with almost 25 aisle of warehousing racks.  OKAY, im going to take a nap for a while. most probably ill be going to parkway parade later to see talib's band in a gig there. later! |
| Friday, June 17 |
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I am very tired. been working 14hours a day for the past two days, and tmr another 14hours. you know, when u're like so tired and keep thinking about that somebody... it suck big time. how i wish i was really tired and all i could think is to rest but noooo.... i keep thinking about her... i've never felt dissapointed this long. i can feel the dissapointment for the past 6months and i've still not moved on yet. you know how it feels like to care for someone dearly, to sacrifice your precious time and life for her and to be the first one start a conversation by an sms but in return, im not sure if she's forcing herself not to talk to me or either she's busy... but come on... even if you're busy, its not that as if you couldnt spare a few minutes just to say hi and bye? and she doesnt even read my blog anymore (as what she claimed)............ all i wish is just to be happy. fuck this life. when can i ever be happy? |
| Wednesday, June 15 |
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my blog have reached a milestone of 10,000++ hits since i started this this blog in dec 2003. and im over about what happened yesterday. i hope she's happy migrating to the States to join her family. you know what, i've just spent US32buckaroos on ebay. i bought a hurley shirt and a hurley beanie. holy shit, its quite expensive but rather a rarity to have hurley stuff to be found in singapore... but anyway, here's the list i want to do/get. 1) long break. 2) go to the beach. 3) movies. 4) i want get into an airplane! 5) lastly, i want money. somebody save .... me.......!!! burps! haha. |
| Tuesday, June 14 |
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IM REALLY FUCKING SAD RIGHT NOW. the girl i used to have a crush on... she's moving to the America. she already withdrew from school last semester... and i only got to know today. and she's leaving for States tomorrow!! NOOOO!!!!!! i still remember those time eventhough it was ONLY a few times- taking the train to work, going to school together.... and i do still remember our only movie which was Spiderman and saw u at Phuture(zouk) 3months ago...!! and i bought you Popeyes chicken from airport and delivered it right to ur voideck..!! haha.. i still remember, when i got to know her, i told her one day we should go supper nearby since we stay a few blocks apart. but till now, it never happen. but never mind, i hope tonite we could meet up. its like my very first time that a friend is leaving this country even though we are not that significant to each other... ah fuck man... why am i like so emotional tonight? |
| Monday, June 13 |
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[this is my life, its not what it was before] its a rarity to see me online at this hour during weekdays! yeah i took a day off for a few reasons. 1) thought i could see her. but can't, she need sometime alone. 2) i feel so cheap (exploited labourer during attachment) 3) parents not back yet, so dad doesnt know i skipped work. im such a smartass rite? 4) i need a rest badly. hey, what kind of shampoo which is effective for dry hair? my backhair is kinda long already and super dry. hmm... lets try beijing 101! haha, that hair specialist centre... i feel like going back to sleep again. *hey sexy lady, care for dance with me?* =) |
| Sunday, June 12 |
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[Goodness Gracious!] CLUBBING YESTERDAY was FANTASTIC!!! chinablack was superb last nite.. it was like r&b night from 11am... then they play some oldies remix and rock song... not bad la! i like! my friends know how crazy i went. to meiqi: i told you rite i will dance in the platform at 1am+... so i did right? anything for me? :p and i couldnt believe i danced up the platform for like 1hour++++ i lost count of the timing ah.. too high already. i will be damn hyper whenever josh is dancing beside me on the platform. tell you young ang moh guys who are into hip&hop... they can dance very well.. and IM NOT GAY k. im just complementing his dance. then both of us will like go 'what what? what what?'<--- like those in fatman scoop - be faithful song. haha. while dancing on the platform i made friends with some girls. i can still remember their name okay! its sheraline and rosalyn. sherlaine, she's a girl who was practically enjoying herself... suddenly dance beside me.... i look at her.. she look at me... then she start that sexy eye look and sexy dance at me lor. omg that's my second time of having that kind of dance on a platform where everybody could see. hahahaha! i got back home at 6.30am just now. parents out of town AGAIN. my dad got 5days off since friday. so, like SUDDENLY, he told my mum, 'hey lets go bagpacking to KL or maybe langkawi'. then my mum instantly said, 'OKAY!' power ah. |
| Saturday, June 11 |
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Oasis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out. Hold on, hold on Don't be scared You'll never change what's been and gone May your smile shine on Don't be scared your destiny will keep you warm Coz all of the stars are fading away Just try not to worry you'll see them someday Take what you need and be on your way And stop crying your heart out Get up, come on Why are you scared? I'm not scared You'll never change what's been and gone We're all of us stars we're fading away Just try not to worry you'll see us someday Just take what you need and be on your way And stop crying your heart out... |
| Thursday, June 9 |
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[first experience] holy shit. really i mean it! tonite i was so hyped up to the highest gear. i took a cab home with my korean boss and my manager. this taxi driver who's 68years old pick us up. he was fucking speeding all the way from marina square to jurong point. he was driving at bloody 130-150km/hr. im not joking balls. i was so scared eventhough i did experienced 200km/hr on a car and 180km/hr on a 1100cc bike before in MALAYSIA. shit dude. this is singapore road, so small with lots of cars thats why im scared! THEN shit happenned. he overtook this black mitsubishi lancer. the driver of that car was pissed off, kept on flashing his light. i didnt notice it la... but the taxi driver only told me later. so we reached jurong point from marina square in just 15minutes!!!! can u believe it?? after we dropped off my manager, we continued another 100m till we reach a red light. sekali we turn to the right, we saw this black mitsubishi car. kanina, the guy wind down his window, showed his WARRANT card and told us to pull over. thats it, its a undercover traffic police. HAHAHA! the officer held us back for like 10minutes... damn it, wasted my precious time. anyway, i felt pity for the uncle... he's 68 and working as a relief driver. sigh. hard life for him. and its a first time experience for me. okay thats my story for the night. i am very very tired. i need a good sleep. sweet dreams my friends. |
| Wednesday, June 8 |
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[leave me] here i am once again, having a new layout. as usual, i got the background and templates from other blogskin... then i edit here and there... got that incubus picture somewhere... its so nice. i've been really busy nowdays with WORK (geeez, adulthood is starting to kick in me). only tonite will be the only time im free. hence i took this precious time to update my blog. my managers told me that my korean bosses are extremely pleased with my contributions to the company. i feel really good hearing that. anyway, if you guys wanna find me, drop by marina square yeah. its at level three. drinks are on the house. i promise. =) anyway, the song i wrote below... it was merely out of the depression that im going through. im kinda in the state of depression.... i havent been meeting my close friends for a couple of weeks... but how did i get through this life everyday eventhough im burden with my heavy emotional feelings? i made myself occupied with hell lots of work. goodbye. izan - untitled. you know how much sacrifices i had to make for you? my brain tells me that she doesn't care at all but my heart tells me that she's pretending not to care because after what we had gone through. doesn't she know that i really care for her? all those efforts and sacrifices are truly for her, only. doesn't she know that im really trying very hard just to win her back? if only i knew that love was this hard, i should have given up this journey long time ago. but i see hope in you. you gave me a reason to live this life everyday and hoping that one day, you will say that you love me. |
| Sunday, June 5 |
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[no-life] its really a good feeling when you're being a part of a team generating ideas and building up a business. i've been working really hard the past two days. with better new working life and pay, i would really love to work. i tell you, koreans are very nice people and customer service orientated personnel. but its kinda worrying for me when everytime i try to communicate with them bcos their english slang is totally off. but its good that they appreciate my ideas and suggestion on buidling up the business. with this kind of experience... once i start of my mini online business with ji chuan..... at least i know whattodo. god, i can forsee my life is getting busier in the next few months. i so lack of sleep. oh yah, on saturday at 1am, i saw alot of blood for the first time in my life. a colleague of mine got his hand cut. it was a damn deep cut... blood was flowing continously like nobody business. he was losing alot of blood, face turn pale, then 10minutes later he puked alot. so the basin was full of blood and puke. serene and me was there holding his hand... jeeez. i felt like puking back then and lucky my shirt wasnt puked on. pity serene had to be the one! too bad yeah girl? hahahaha. suddenly i really want to experience how does it feel to lose a lot of blood within minutes. OKAY, im crapping too much. got to sleep now. so long and goodnight. |
| Wednesday, June 1 |
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[leader] i've just realised this myself today - im such a workaholic. you know i've been working all the for the past 14days. my attachment and my part time work... i think its the money and responsibility that motivates me to work. i've got a new job(with a better pay and a leadership role) at this Korean style cafe called People's Say Cafe. Its a very very popular cafe back in Korea. Its the first and new concept of cafe in singapore btw. so you guys must drop by one day to Marina Square(where we are located) and find me there okay. Maybe i can give you free drinks.... =) you will love the ambience in this cafe. really. no gimmick. i can't wait for my weekends... need some rest and entertainment... yeah, im watching a movie this saturday!!! ciao! |
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