| Sunday, January 30 |
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hey, i was wondering if ever one day there will be no feeling of dissapointment. will that day ever exists? to me dissapointment is all about broken promises and shattered dreams.
will ever on one fine day, promises will not be broken.... and dreams will come true? i was thinking, with the friendships i have now, will i still have these special bond with friends until the day i shut my eyes forever? will my current friends still hang on to me even i have wrinkles and walking with a stick one day and reminisce the about the fun old times we used to have? i know life's temporary. and at this very day, suddenly, i declare that im happy to be single. =) sometimes being in situation of dissapointment makes me ponder what is the use of living... im so lost im barely here. i wish i could explain myself, but words escape me. its too late. to save me. you're too late. you're a complete dissapoinment. well im drowning in the next room the last contagious victim of this plague between us. im sick with apprehension. im cripple from exhaustion. i drag the moment when you finally come to kill me. |
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today was kinda fun working.... cos one of my very long time friend who's my colleague also.... he was freaking drunk. he had loads of wine and liqour the night before... he had chivas... he told me its 70% alcohol content... hahaha... he was so super high when i was working with him.... he got hangover and he still work.. best la~
i am so exhausted and very very full. my dear good friend came down to my workplace after i was done with my shift... had a talk about her relationship problems. tried my best to give her my best advices eventhough i suck at it. i had 2 soon kuey(one of my favourite delicacy sia) and popiah during dinner with her.... and im so full. after that we went town....intended to go home by taking another straight bus from town.... but instead we visited my friends at lido. its tiring you know that i've been to town for two days straight and had to stand up all the way home when taking the bus.... duhz. but it was fun hanging out... but when somebody think that im enjoying the company of my good friend all by myself and not inviting him to come along.... man, its a shame. haha. fuck it, i hope one day he realise that he's not right all the way. anyways, im gonna take a nap for a while. get some 30minutes nap and watch man utd vs middlesbrough later... i've made a point in my life when i have the money, i'll bloody make sure im going to visit old trafford, manchester. and watch any live soccer game with manchester united. |
| Saturday, January 29 |
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hey. funkamania infront of taka s.c just now was quite cool. lots of chicks. u guys should have been there. haha. its a hip hop dance competition. went there cos i was bored at home and my friend's friend was participating in that competition and his group won the second place. cool stuff. and i made new friends especially ahmad. his from nus. very cool guy, decent and funny. he taught me about the manual functions on my camera. now i feel that the money that my dad paid for the camera is going to be well utilise. =)
i would like to show you all a somekind of a poem i wrote 4years ago to this special someone. but its in malay. i wrote it on a paper and today that person found it and i borrowed it from her. here it goes. ******, Seorang kawan yang amatku sayangi, seorang kawan yang sanggup menangis, bersama-sama pada waktu sukar. Seorang kawan yang ceria dan bahagia. Seorang kawan yang bijaksana dalam soal percintaan. Dialah yang memberiku semangat, untuk berjuang dalam realiti kehidupan dengan, nasihatnya yang amat bermakna. Kebaikkanya tidak dapatku hitungi. Aku amat terhutang budi dengannya. kenangan manis bersamanya tidak dapatku lupakan. Suaranya, ketawanya yang manis masih, nyaring kedengaran di telingaku. Persahabatanku dengannya amat ku hargai sekali. Pada suata hari, aku jatuh cinta terhadapnya, kerna kewanitaannya, keanggunannya dan juga, kecantikannya di dalam hati yang tiada tandingannya, dengan wanita-wanita yang lain di dunia. Tidak mudah bagiku untuk melupakannya. ****** - adalah segala-galanya bagiku. Ku panjatkan doa ke hadrat illahi supaya, dibuka pintu hatinya untukku membukikannya, kejujuran dan keikhlasan cintaku padanya. Aku menulis ini agar kau mengerti yang, selama ini aku menyintaimu sepenuh hati. ******- Anugerah Terindah Yang Kumiliki. my goodness, that was really totally emotional piece of me. shit. those were the days when i was in secondary 4. now my malay language, can scrap already. hahaha. aww man. guess what, this year im turning 20 and i still gotta face childish stuff? quarrelling over some stuff? man. its so irritating when somebody think that he's always right and he keep on shooting all his frustration and calling me a DOOP? and when i want to say something, that person wont give me a chance cos he will be doing the talking all the way and thinking that im wrong all along.... please grow up la boy and look at yourself. YOU NEED TO LEARN TO LISTEN and manage ur anger... Goose..Fra...Ba~~~ i've learnt my lesson so much the past few months on how to control my anger. i'd really like to thank that very intellectual and straightforward person who taught me that- the minah! my common test is coming up on monday, tuesday and wednesday. i havent even start revising. well... good luck to me. =) adios~ |
| Thursday, January 27 |
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okay, i wanted to visit the doctor in the morning today but i didnt dare to go cos i know the doctor will poke the lump on my eyebag and let all the pus and blood flow out and i'll get a bandage on my right eye. but i had to work, so forget it. and when i went to work, damn it, the lump burst! pus and blood was flowing happily when i was working. hahaha. freaking painful man... and i almost freak out when i was in the toilet alone cleaning up the mess on my eye, cos i cried in pain and i saw blood flowing and i tot i cried out blood but only to realised its the blood from the lump! hahaha. gross dude....
sianz, i have to do this stupid LCOM project which i gotta hand up by tmr. who the hell wants to go back to school during your precious one week break? waste my transport fare only. sigh, i feel that im asking too much. i guess its time for me to stop expecting things to happen on my way. fuck it. the reality is, life sucks and i've gotta make sure i'll go through this sucky life everyday and not to expect the unexpected. but with confidence and sheer determination, i can still dream to expect the unexpected. you can do it boy. 3more weeks, and im counting down.... hehe. =) |
| Wednesday, January 26 |
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my right eyebag still not okay, there's pus..EEEE yeah, really EEE. i played soccer with bud and his SP friends at saint wilfrid today and its freaking hot....lucky i bathed after the game, my body was very heaty. and i borrowed my bro's nerdy but trendy black framed specs. cool~ i wanna get a zero-degree specs la... just to protect my eyes.
its nice travelling alone from the west to the north-east of SINGAPORE. haha! i took the NEL back, then i skipped outram and went to harbourfront and took 188 back home JUST to escape the peak hours where u cant get seats on the mrt. i need to sit and yeah i got A SEAT IN THE BUS! hahaha. alright, i think im not really okay at all tonight. i really need someone to guide me. i feel very lost and confused at this very moment. i feel so... my goodness, i think im gonna breakdown anytime.... do i deserve this kind of life? well, i know there's other people who's life is much worse than me. ohwell, we humans will never stop complaning right? sigh, it took me 19years to realise this, i've been single all my life BUT i know im not lonely. i realise that my weakness is that i care too much. btw, how does it feel to be waiting by the phone for a few hours for a phonecall that u're expecting? if its for once, it doesnt matter, but what if it always happen? well, i dont mind waiting cos i've been waiting all my life for that very special day for me. well, waiting is part of ur daily life. you're waiting for tomorrow, u're waiting for alot of things to happen today and tomorrow. so does it matter if u have to wait? no. but why am i complaning? i dont know, its human nature i guess. i just felt tears on my cheeks. damn. life is so sucky now. and, i miss her badly. |
| Tuesday, January 25 |
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what the hell is wrong with blogs that have tagboard from tag-board.com?
i cannot even access www.tag-board.com..... it says gateway timeout. but why the hell other people besides the owner for the blog who have tagboards from tag-board.com can surf our blog and see our tagboards. fuck this shit man. oo anyways, it doesnt matter... im gonna get rid of my tagboard until the server's okay. last night, i was totally ecstatic! haha... only khai#2 knows about it. im khai#1. lol. anyways, talib gave me some knowledgable website like www.howstuffworks.com... its about how things on earth works. cool stuff! check it out when u have the time. btw, did anyone of you actualli remember what happened during the september 11 2002? was it only the twin tower got hit? wrong, pentagon got hit too remember? all we knew was that the pentagon was hit by a boeing 757 remember? but how come there wasnt any statistic about the death of the passenger on the boeing 757 that hit pentagon? was there actualli a plane that hit the pentagon? one thing i got to say, BUSH-WANKER administration, all they do is lie, make up story and destroy the muslim countries. what happened to afghanistan? hundred of thousands of innocent people were killed by the americans. but when the tsunami killed hundred of thousands of people, wow, incredibly the american goverment wanted to help. what happened to iraq? they claimed iraq had mass weapon destruction. till now, did those fuckers get to find it? now what, they are focusing on iran for nuclear weapons? all their prior intentions failed okay. george w.bush will burn in hell. please take ur time looking at this stuff.... http://www.pentagonstrike.co.uk/flash.htm#Main its about the pentagon strike where the truth unfolds. please take a look at it. its very interesting. lets make this world a better place to live. cheers! |
| Sunday, January 23 |
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my tagboard is down, msn was down, and im feeling down down down. lol.
i've been eating alot of junk food man.... need to cut down on it and stop wasting my money on mcdonalds. i went out today to bukit panjang plaza. tried to find some books on microwave communication transimission assignment. but too bad, they have limited archives. but nonetheless, i had a good evening out with....... this song below is my all time favouite EMO PUNK song... and i bet its the same to all of you guys also. GSF ROCKS. its been quite sometime since i listen to it until yesterday, harith played this song on bud's mini ipod with kin's portable loudspeaker.... we played this song loud while sitting at lido and looking at girls.... how contradicting we were.... lol. mxpx - gsf You didn't have to be so mean to me I guess now I see how it's gonna be I'm joining GSF, I've made up my mind Forget this thing called love, it's a waste of time.... Girls ain't no good anymore, anyway! Not for one second I finally understood Why they do what they do, why they say what they say Always happens to my friends, it always happens to me It's taken me 19 years to finally see She said "Can we just be friends?It's just not working out." Another broken heart that I can do without Girls ain't no good anymore, anyway! Not for one second have I understood Why they do what they do, why they say what they say. alrite lads, im going off to play this song with my guitar now. laterz~ |
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its been a long time since i went to town on saturdays. it was good.... GOOODD. as per normal, we paid a visit to hmv, then makan at puncak @ far east, then slacked at lido to eat AGAIN and see char bo, then go borders read magazines and then go home. next week we shall go clarke quay!!!
well, i was queuing up at the damn atm machine at orchard mrt while waiting for the rest to arrive.... then somebody tap my back... it was yana. long time never see that cute lady. if only i have her picture, i'd post it here. haha. she was with her fiance anyway and she still owe me a treat to seoul garden! d'oh! i've tried my best not to say this out... but i can't hold it any longer...... i dont know where and how she is now. but i hope that she's doing alrite with the best of health. i miss you. |
| Saturday, January 22 |
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hi guys. its 3.45am now. i couldnt sleep and was thinking to do something productive.... and thus, i've got myself a new layout. i aint a surfer nor am i a poser. i just like waves and i found dane reynolds quiksilver picture a very cool one.
i think i should start studying. im gonna have my one week break next week. will use the time wisely. i really wanna get a grade A or B this semester. remember i was talking about why should you be bothered about someone when that person couldnt be bothered with you at all? well, i have a perfect song for it. read the lyrics below man. anyways, im gonna go out for a while now, wander around my neighbourhood for a while and go 7-11.... need to think about alot of stuff.... need some solitude. sigh. Taproot - Day By Day looks like I've fucked up again. what's new? I am always getting out of hand, though in control sometimes just don't give a shit. I get raw, have fun, I love it. so sick of sayin' sorry, those apologies have got to go. but I don't intend to create a pain in your heart, I am a pain in the ass cause that's what I am about. day by day I can see a change in every way some things get worse some things get better I hate to say.... those blatant lies are now a part of my past. I hope I don't get confronted abusing others' minds through control, I don't want it to last, so here I go. I am on my way I am leaving for good. I pray that you forgive me for all of the harm, that I caused cause we were friends, and we had some great times and, that's why I am just fine, cause that's the way it is! I hate to say but, I've declined all your ways. |
| Friday, January 21 |
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updates updates updates.. hmm.. LCOM common test on wednesday was alright... i think i can secure 36marks from MCQ. but i screwed up the SAQ questions... i think out of 10 SAQ question, i did only 5 or 6.
but this module is SO HARD TO STUDY lor but easy to pass. alot of terms and theories. this module suck to the core man. nvm la... pass can already la~~ then lecturer yogi bear made my day after LCOM test. we were having a tutorial at a computer lab. kim was surfing sgGirls.com(its not porn btw).... me and kenneth sat beside him... then both of us kaypoh and look at his terminal.... then yogi bear saw the commotion and us talking..... guess what he did.... HE FUCKING RAN to us. have u ever see a curious lecturer running towards you just to sneek into what u are looking at computer?my goodness, when he ran i could feel the vibration... imagine those fats on his tummy.... *doink doink doink*.... but lucky kim was fast enough to close the window... and yogi bear was too late... and he said something funny but i forgot...... and i remember last time when he caught one of us playing game and surfing the web during tutorials, he said ,'if you have something good, share with me la....' hahahahhaa... tak boleh tahan..... bloody joker. i wanna nominate him lecturer of the year la~ anyways, i learnt some motivational lesson. since wednesday, i woke up every morning with a target in my mind: be happy and just think about myself. im trying to tell myself.... we need to wake up each day and start afresh. not to think about what happened last night. we need to take care of our own 'logisitical' life. life need to move on day by day by using your emotions as your transportation... why should we be bothered about people who cant be even bothered about you? it is just heart breaking when you totally care about somebody but in the end, that person just couldnt be bothered... and that sucks boy! but too bad yah, u have to face this kind of people sometimes. kk enough of lecture. anyway i wanna learn chinese..... serene suggested that i should get a chinese girlfriend..... so i can learn chinese F.O.C. which chinese girl who wants to be my part time girlfriend? hahah riiiiite.... if not... maybe i'll take weekend chinese class during NS. Its gonna be cool. Happy Birthday to Teezee.....hope that u have a fruitful year ahead yah aunty... and have fun with that KL dude. and Happy Birthday to Isnan aka Loserkid(one of my best buddies during o levels)..... stay gay always dude. you are the man! haha. cheers to both of you! Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all my muslim friends and family. =) |
| Tuesday, January 18 |
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i wanted to go yishun today. but due to unforeseen circumstances, i had to make my way to town to finish up my product quality system project which is to do some customer service interface and evalute it. went to Breeks! @ taka. we choose that restaurant for our project. nonetheless, we paid like 26bucks just to do the freaking project. damn it! but the lasagne extremely nice right javier? and im always satisfied with the customer service at Breeks! bravo!
went to play billard@ far east s.c to kill time. it was my day and javier was kind enough to pay for the very long game which cost him $5.40. =) then we caught 'meet the fockers' @ lido. damn, it took me so long just to watch that movie... but meet the parents was funnier! i just can't myself from saying this, i think im depressed at this very moment. my life is sucky, alot project datelines to meet, i've been helping a few people on their personal problems and i dont have time for myself. i just dont know who to complain to. i've been lying to my dad whenever he asked me 'how are you doing'.. i'll just tell him that im doing alrite when im not. i just see that my life now is unfair. things doesnt go on the way i wanted it to be. there's alot of things that i want to say, but its no use of complaining... i cannot say anyhow, cos it might hurt someone. thats all i have to say dude. alright, got to go for now. take care always and all the best in whatever you're doing, dont give up aight. |
| Monday, January 17 |
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I WANT TO GET A NEW GUITAR. MY MARINA IS GETTING OLD. CAN SOMEBODY BUY ME A SEMI-ACOUSTIC GUITAR? THANKS ALOT. =)
damn, i slept alot today. but its good la... get all the rest that i need. didnt do anything much except that i pat nina to sleep. its so nice to see how a baby sleep on ur arms. haha. i felt like a father today.. other than that, i finished up a new song called 'she said.' i think its the best song i wrote in months. and today my good buddy wrote me another testimonial and im so touched by it. thanx for being there for me always yah buddy, you rock! i'll try my best not to cut my hair. i wanna keep it real long before i go ns WHICH IS NEXT YEAR. heh. :p and i wont be blogging that much from now on. kinda lazy and my blog isnt worth your time reading it. anyway, here it goes. izan - she said. turning on my back now trying to mend this broken pieces of me and she said stand up on own feet and face the reality. haunted by this wrong direction that i've been led into, i feel so lost and so confused. but now im trying to step out of the darkness that my life began with. chorus: she said stop pretending that i dont care when i actually do. she said that i still dont know what's life is all about. i think she's leaving me, leaving me for good. she said she's torn apart, by what i've said. this can't be the end. i hope that this stupid poem, could fix us together. its emtpy tonight and do you notice that i've been trying hard to be with you. kudos to all of you, who's been through all this. [Am i losing you? I think it's time that i should leave but i'm waiting till it's over] |
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hello world. i went to watch the tiger cup finals just now. i was so looking forward to the game.... but it was quite a boring game. because we didnt get a good seat but still, a satisfactory view. if only we could get the seat where we sat during SG vs myanmar game. some primary school kid who sat beside me just now asked me whats the meaning of 'buto' as the crowd went by cursing the referee... i just told them.... 'shh, you should not learn it. its a malay vulgar word.' lol. congratulation to the lions anyway. they've done very well throughout the competition. today was the first time in my life i saw singapore police SOC. very cool outfit they have.
after the match, we walked all the way from kallang to suntec city. man that was far.. took us ard 30minutes just to find food at suntec(mcdonalds) where there isnt any crowd. and my right knee hurts. i dont know what to do tmr. my plan got cancelled. maybe i'll just go watch some movie. alrite peeps. im going to sleep now. cheers to everyone of you who went to the national stadium just now. We're The Champions, but sadly, only in tiger cup. lol. =) |
| Sunday, January 16 |
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hey you all. remember i talked about inter-racial relationship like few days ago? well yeah, it suck when you come to think that it will end because of religious barriers and stuff. i just had a conversation with a friend just now. well, its exactly the same problem what my good friend had last year. its such a pity that it had to end. but its good if you are mentally& emotionally prepared to break up cos it wont hurt that bad. anyway, i hope i did something good tonight by consoling lina. cheer up and be cool aight.
i was online in my mobile messenger while on the way back home from work. as you know i can get nauseated easily while on bus/car. i was chatting with someone and i offended her without noticing it cos i really felt like puking but at the same time trying to keep the conversation on.... how foolish and selfish i am. sigh. i jus wanna say sorry. believe me, im in a process of changing my attitude. if i was the old izan, i will be brooding over old stuff. There's no use to talk about it two or three days later and trying to clarify things up. it should be done on the spot during the argument. i think im growing a lil bit more mature as days pass by. just want to tell you all, i've learnt alot from year 2004. SERIOUSLY, i learnt alot. believe me im still keeping my 5th resolution for 2005 which is to stop this emoshit in me. have faith in me aight? but shit happens sometimes rite people? =) be cool with when it happens. im so sorry to anyone whom i've offended. the song below really suits my mood and how i feel. good night world. Nelly - Over And Over(feat. Tim McGraw) Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I cant keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I cant take it yeah I cant shake it Nooo I cant wait to see you Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes And its a shame that we got to spend our time Being mad about the same things Over and over again About the same things Over and over again Ohh But I think shes leaving Ooh man shes leaving I dont know what else to do (I Cant go on not loving you) Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I cant keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again yeah And I cant take it yeah I cant shake it Nooo I remember the day you left I remember the last breath you took right in front of me When you said that u would leave I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything But I see clearly now And this choice I made keep playing in my head Over and over again Playing my head Over and over again Ohh I think shes leaving Ooh man shes leaving I dont know what else to do (I Cant go on not loving you) Now that I have realized that Im going down From all this pain you have put me through Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh I CANNOT GO ON NOT LOVING YOU. |
| Saturday, January 15 |
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today was very simple a very long day for me.. i woke up at 6am after a 8hour sleep. i had a good time in school... trying very hard to concentrate. the conversation i had two days ago about life as a student while having lunch at bukit panjang... it really reminded me about how disciplined and motivated i was during my secondary school. i realised how weak and how easy i was influenced throughout the days after my o levels. sigh.
im trying to count days before i turn 20, but i purposely lost count after i counted till march.... damn, its just too fast for me to grow up. if i want to grow up, please let me grow up into a mature person. i think National Slavery(NS) will make me grow up as a mature person. look at one of my best buddies, kin. he was a bloody jackass king to me last time.. look at him now, he wont even do some jackass stunt anymore. screw u kin. get back to the light man... lol. anyhow, today was quite funny. i played billard again during my 1hour break. fun sia! ah loon was a big joker in billard today... he was so frustrated cos he missed the hole that made him jumped(like some monkey) with his stick pointing upwards and it hit the ceiling and there was a loud thud lor. make me embarassed only. and, kenneth, another joker of the day. after our last lecture of the day, we were packing up to leave the class and the guys was having a conversation in chinese.... then suddenly kenneth shouted 'CHEEEEEBYE!' and my yogi bear lecture was still in the class. Yogi bear heard the commotion and the bad language, and he shouted,' KENNETH, COME OVER HERE!' so fierce but yogi bear's face was never SERIOUS... imagine, u're in poly and how often do you get those kind of scolding from a lecturer? this show how immature and unprofessional we are. sigh. anyway, kenneth said 'sorry laaaar~' and yogi bear was very cool and he said something before we left... 'i can scold more worse that what you said just now'. and i broke down into laughters again! hahahaha yogi bear is the joker no.3 for the day. lol!! gua tak boleh angkat la.. hahahaha... then went to work. today was pretty fast cos i was enjoying myself disturbing nurul and kenneth. i love teasing newbies but i never bully you guys okay!! haha!!! what a good day but someone's down with flu.... i hope she's doing okay right now. she will be better soon. hmm, and someone just made a confession to me like 30minutes ago and i dont know how to react to that... hmm. anyway, im dead tired now. gotta get some sleep. im gonna have a very very super long sleep. so, goodnite to you all.... damn, i need a hug* |
| Thursday, January 13 |
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hm, why is everybody complaning that they are tired and lack of sleep? that includes me....
i was so happy that today our class ended SUPER DUPER EARLY! we were suppose to have 2 tutorials from 1-5 with 2hours each. the other class was having PMK while we were having IMGT. they finished PMK at 1.45. we ended our IMGT at 1.50... then we switched class... and our PMK ended after 20minutes. yes la. i love lazy lecturers. they are cool mo-fos. today im gonna sleep early... its 9.45pm now. tiiiiiirrrreeeeddddd la but well, i had a good time today! i walked alot around bukit panjang today and went to eat fishball noodle today with her just now. before that, i went to play billard with javier(my new pet :p) and kenneth. when i wanted to book a table, 4 minah was on my pathway and my head was down as i was trying to search for my IC in my wallet and then... jeng jeng jeng.... one of the girls deliberately and purposely clashed and brushes her shoulder/chest at me.. the bitch then nonchalantly said 'eh sorry, sorry ehh!' with her flirtatious voice and the aunty who saw the incident was laughing at me... basket. i felt like slapping that girl... but no use doing that... instead i went to vent my anger during billard and won against my pet. nice game javier. =) well, im off to sleep now. au revoir~ |
| Wednesday, January 12 |
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today wasnt a bad day afterall. except that everything i did today was in a rush. like i skipped my qla tutorial just to go to work, then after work i rushed back to school to catch MDE(a division of logistic management, quality management engineering and engineering informatics course) idol. i was there just to support my classmate. i felt happy when i stood up ALONE and cheered for her after she finished her song and sent more than 50smses on voting. cool~ anyway, she won the third prize. its good its guuuuuuuuuuuud. =)
even though i had a hectic schedule today, i managed to set aside some time to help out a friend. how do you feel when u're having a inter-racial relationship? its good isnt it but most of the time, parents would object to it. but anyway, treasure whatever you have now. dont look back and think what u have done. its too late. the objective in this life is to look forward and keep on moving and never give up on what you're doing. although im might be contradicting myself, i just feel that i need to be given a chance. can somebody donate me some money so i can take my driving license asap? lol! anyhow, im gonna take a rest now. take care ya'll. and happy birthday to LOWINA!!! hehe. |
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hey. im so dead tired now but i wanna blog! im tired cos i worked 10hours today. power ah? hehe. i've gotta agree with kenneth and serene who was working with me today that there was quite a number of pretty customers. lol. funny la u guys. and to kenneth, please control your 'little brother' aight bro. =) i was pleased to reach home and to read an email by someone whom i've been treating her badly when she actualli cares alot about me as a FRIEND. sorry yah nurul. this a public apology k. not all the time u can see khai do this aight. =) i just dont have the mood to chat with you in msn. but i'll be a better friend/colleague k.
okay that entry was about my working colleagues by the way. haha. enough about them, i've got a comment from some1 who loves to read my lyrics. that person said her friend's emo core bands can actualli steal away my lyrics and use them. but heck. that's their problem la. im nobody right? god knows better who's the rightful owner yeah? anyway, you think i have the money to like sue them over copyright issues? lol. but anyway, i have to respect whatever people think or said.... it can be true sometimes, but at this moment, i just dont care. but im pleased that i have a fan! lol. well, my life's been okay. i really wanna change my blog template as soon as i can find the time to edit my blog, maybe i wanna change to my old 'incubus' template... gonna add a few new links up when i have the time. im wondering what will happen if i suddenly quit blogging? hmm. |
| Tuesday, January 11 |
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okay. its 2am and i just finished my report.
school was alrite yesterday. i was really thinking about how badly i miss her and my chances of meeting her any sooner. i was really hoping to meet up. and yes, she called and we met. im glad that we met! dont you all wanna look at the person's face whom you like, forever if you have the chance? thats what i did. dont wanna waste any second cos its not all the time u can meet them rite? =) thats all i've gotta say. cheers to you all. goodnite. |
| Monday, January 10 |
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okay, my weekends was boring except that i downloaded some nice songs. i need more nice r&b songs. i took bus 75 back home....... make me reminisce the time i walked with her from my workplace to the bus stop and we were sharing an umbrella cos it was raining. =) anyway, i got bus sick. i was on msn mobile while in the bus.. chit-chat till i get nauseated. its all your fault fina!!! haha. once i reached bukit panjang, i went to the toilet and puked. aww.
then, on the way to take another bus home, some uncle with walking stick approached he politely asked me for 20cents cos he wanted to take the bus.. he got locked out from his own house cos the wind blew his door and his key and wallet was inside his house. hahahaha. then he gotta go to cck to meet his son to get the keys.... he's 47years old and R-E-T-I-R-E-D Army leftenan colonel with 3sons who all graduated from hwa chong jc and NUS(damn, he's some lucky father)... he fell in the brunei jungles and broke his metatarsus and it fucked up his entire right leg and hip and thus, the retirement. anyway, i had a 10minutes of chit chat session with him while waiting for his bus. i found out that the common topics we youngsters male talk with older male adults... its either about studies, work, politics, soccer or money. but that chinese uncle somehow TOTALLY inspired me with some advices on studies as well what to do during NS... i will work on your advices sire. =) well dats if for now. im gonna sleep. goodnite to all of you~ |
| Saturday, January 8 |
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the only time i went for a local gig was 2years ago when me and my band perform outside victoria hall. a pathetic gig though. anyway, i feel like going to Back 2 Da Roots gig this sunday at The Substation Garden. i dont even know where the hell is The Substation Garden. the genre of the song of the bands playing sounds cool(roots reggae, emocore, JB Skapunk, oldschool punkrock, punkrock). and there's aother gig at my own school later on during the day. damn. anyway, i didnt know anything about this gig on saturday & sunday.... but my lecturer for 'How Rock Music Developed', this some cool egyptian guy, email his students and gave an online brochure for the gig. cool eh? but too bad. im working on sunday.
i couldnt get myself to sleep... cos i slept like ard 9pm till 1.30am? during that period, i was defragmenting my harddisk. blink 182 - im lost without you I swear that I can go on forever again Please let me know that my one bad day will end I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Im Lost Without You. |
| Friday, January 7 |
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im relieved. Inventory management and Quantitative Logistic Analysis test is over. but i expect a very bad result and preparing myself for IMGT re-test. =)
i hope mr.hamdan will be extra super lenient with my imgt paper. hehe. man, this semester i have cute and fat lecturers. hahaha. i aint gay though but they look cute with their big tummy. one of them look like a fucking yogi bear. and yogi bear's QLA test just now was super easy. HAHAHA! i wonder if one day i'll have that kind of tummy... hahahaha! few days ago some good souls asked me out to airport and we went to ate PoPeYeS Chicken!!! i wasnt happy with the cashier though. i asked for 2 piece chicken meal but the bugger gave me a 3 piece chicken meal... power la. but anyway, i became some good soul also. i bought 3 pieces of chicken for fifi. hope u enjoyed the chicken yah girl. anyway... i enjoyed my day at the airport. alrite, im off from here. gotta do some assignment. cheers to you all! flying blind - smokescreen have you seen my girl? she's the one with the curly hair. she was sitting just right over there... but now she's nowhere to be found. i think she's mad at me. i dont know why. maybe because i made her cry when i told her i was down. where are you girl? i miss you so. |
| Tuesday, January 4 |
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down down down down.
thats what im feeling now. i had a really super bad day today. i was kind enough to pay for billard game today. im gonna have two important test this thursday. and im not prepared yet. i've lost my motivation for a while. i feel like i couldnt continue anymore. this life sucks. but i know, i've got to stand up on my own feet. i will get through this soon. im hit and im down. blink 182 - down The drops of rain they fall all over this awkward silence makes me crazy the glow inside burns light upon her I'll try to kiss you if you let me (this can't be the end) Tidal waves they rip right through me tears from eyes worn cold and sad pick me up now, I need you so bad Down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down down (it gets me so) Your vows of silence fall all over the look in your eyes makes me crazy I feel the darkness break upon her I'll take you over if you let me (you did this) |
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i slept like 1.45am last nite... and i had a nice dream... i dreamt of her =).
but i was so dissapointed when i woke up. i received an sms. it totally ruined my mood like how my mood went down the drain minutes after 2005 countdown. imagine, when u're having a mindful thought, thinking about someone u actualli care. would you even care how much does it cost to just make a phone call or sms? no right? anyways, its already 7.15am. my class starts at 8am. im gonna be late! i've been dissapointed alot in this life. when can i be happy? what happened to my fucking 2005 top priority resolution which i wish for happiness?? goodbye and take care always all of you. |
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woo. i actualli send a super mass sms to all my friends just now which goes like this ,' ok, i know im that damn bored right now & i feel like wasting my sms & and i dont have any nice sms 2 forward 2 u. anyways, hope u're doing fine. good night!'. im glad most of them return my sms. i was so super bored. lol. okay. i just finished my essay. gotta sleep now. school starts at 8am later. good nite.
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| Monday, January 3 |
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Hi peeps. im back in one piece. actualli i got back home like on sunday morning at 5am. while i was in KL during the last few minutes of 2004, i was trying to recall the happiest/saddest moment in every month during 2004. well, let me summarise it.
january 2004 i started my blog. my blog is one years old already!. i was moving on from yanti at this point of time. february 2004 i hate valentines day cos i argued with someone. my younger bro got his O level results and his results was WAY better than mine. march 2004 i contradicted my moving on phase from yanti cos i went out with her and kissed her. that was the last time we went out. then another girl came into my life and she fucked up my life that bad. man, at this very month i dated two girls out who are already attached. im such a bitch. but nonetheless, i experience lots of things. *shhhh, its a secret* x) but it was a good month indeed. i went to watch the concert of the year for me. went to KL with bud and harith to watch INCUBUS!!!! =) april 2004 things got worse between me and hazwani. but we put it to an end and went out during my birthday. my 19th birthday was totally a boring day. i was emotionless on dat day. i spent my last few hours of my birthday watching movie alone. =( but i had fun when i went out to celebrate my birthday & fintz birthday together. it was just a dinner la. may 2004 it was quite a hectic month for me... exams and working during holidays. bud's sister got married. june 2004 i gotta know fifi. some cool&happening chick. i had a crush on this chinese girl. LoLx. it was a happening month for me. i drank vodka for the time. had hell of a good time during my class chalet. i went to KL with my mum, cousin and my bro. my 2nd year of school started. july 2004 i learnt one thing from watching 'my sassy girl'. 'fate is like building a bridge of chance for someone you love' well, i think thats kinda true. august 2004 i met this special person. you who you are girl. =) went to sentosa with my close friends and we slept by the beach. =) september 2004 the most memorable month of the year for me. i had a class bbq at ecp. i can still remember the worst forfeit i had from losing a game. i had to eat 3pieces of bread in one minute. if i couldnt finish it within a minute, i haf to eat another 2 more slice of bread. no time limit. i almost puke. lol. bud's brother got married. =) went out with the MINAH for the first time and shouted in the movie for the first time because i was scared. *shy* october 2004 another turning point in my life. i fell for the minah. i went out with her lots of times. took loads of pictures. i found out that west coast park is such a beautiful place to slack with your love ones. ~sweet memories~ november 2004 for the first time in my life i had my sahur @town with my close friends on the last day of ramadan. i was really emotional during this month and it sucks. hari raya. i watched 2 movies alone during this month. i had dinner with her at swensen before i left for KL. i went to Kl with my classmates. fun!!! december 2004 i went to clubbing for the first time at chinablack. i found out that prawn noodle is a delicacy. i argued alot of time with her. im so sorry that it happened. i was shocked that hazwani(my old scandal) she got engaged to some other guy. i went out alot of times with fina and nisa and alif. had fun. i terribly miss her alot during this month cos we didnt see each other much. i went to KL again for 2005 countdown with bud and my friends. -end- so thats how my 2004 went by. yesterday was quite a good day. i went to watch singapore vs myanmar. met nisa one the way there.. the girl went to watch with her friends.... it was scary when the fight amongst the spectators broke out. myanmar and singapore supports fought with each other. but fun lor. haha. im still stunned when i saw like 5 myanmar supporters jumped down from the spectators gallery(like 1 storey high of a hdb flat) and tried to beat up the policemen on duty. hahaha. what a scene. hahahaha.. alrite. im off for now. need to clean up my room. then gotta do some essay. im trying my best not to say this..... but i really miss her alot. sigh. laterz~ |
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