| Tuesday, January 31 |
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[i know you well, i know your smell. im addicted to you] wow. last night was a memorable one. i love it. i felt like i was on ecstacy. anyway, beating a long queue because you have invites and on priority queue.... it makes me feel like a king when i walked pass by the long queue and go in straight into the club. lol! and i paid only half of the cover charge of those people in the long queue pays. NICE!!! then sitting and lying down by the bridge at clarke quay counting the stars and talk was super nice la... as if we were like a drunkard lying down at the bridge and looking up the sky... hahaha. and you know what. i got back home at 4.45am... slept for 2hours and went to work from 8am to 5pm! i tell you, the past 7days, im like a freaking zombie. you touch my heart, you touch my soul.... i'm addicted to you... once again.... i feel like im in............ =) |
| Sunday, January 29 |
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yo! i made a record for myself this week. i had 8hours and 30minutes of sleep from tuesday 7am to friday 2.10am. thats like freaking 3days+!! this is all due to school, work and projects. except on thursday night, i went out till late and slept at my frens place for just 1hour 30mins... then left his place at 7am for school.... i know it's such a crazy thing to do. but it was worth it! haha! on friday, there's a few things to be remembered. first, my good friends harith and shakin came over to my school to have lunch with my classmates(eelynn, this is for you! hahaha). then, after lunch, as we are on our way back to class, we had to walked down a 50metre slope. then our dear meiqi suggested a challenge. who ever dares to run down the slopes win a lunch treat from her. so kenneth and me took up the challenge. 1st person to touch down at the finishing line wins a lunch treat. so we ran down, and kenneth fell badly once he reach the finishing line. it was really really bad. everything was captured on a video. i shall post the video soon!! its a freaking funny video. everything was directed and produced by chng meiqi (and this is for you rachel!) hahahaha. after school, i went off to town... played pool. then slacked at a bar called 'Can' and played daidee for 2hours++... shiok lor. win $4+ at the end of the day... then somebody lost $12++(shall not mention her name) hahahahaha! actually, im in pain while blogging now. i met with an accident while at work. got scalded by hot water. its really bad on my right leg and right arm. there's continuous pus flowing on the wounds.... sigh... but im gonna be alright.... =) |
| Monday, January 23 |
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i can't wait for thursday. going to party on at club momo. there's an event there organised by nus... right on after partying, i need to go to school the next morning... chop chop you will see me sleep during classes. oh shit, now then i remember, i have to attend a talk on friday afternoon. SHIT. then, next week. i want to club again on monday night. there's the hip hop DJ Showdown(battle) between Liquidroom Dj vs MOS Dj and it's happening at MOS. on the same day too, at zouk, they are hosting Paul Van Dyke(the world's most famous trance Dj, infact, the best). how?? and oh, edward's coming back this saturday! |
| Sunday, January 22 |
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a slight misunderstanding between two friends in two different world on their own.... can actually cause an argument. i used to have this good friend. we used to always hang out whenever we can..... then suddenly i just don't know what happened. i became too busy. but no matter what during those busy days, i still tried asking my good friend out. it's always been me who had to initiate to meet up and catch up with each other. things just got silent between us anyway...... i tried my best to salvage our good friendship term.... but now it downgraded to just friends.. don't you get it? good friend and a friend is a two total different thing in practical. A good friend will indeed listen to you and help you out no matter what! But a friend, will just listen, sympathise you and try to help you. A good friend will always never give up on each other! But a friend comes and go. i tried my very fucking best to salvage our relationship as good friends... but i don't see you making an effort at all! are you trying to blame me about my selfish behaviour that i won't want to listen to you what you've got to say? look at yourself first then you come and talk to me. at least a simple word like saying sorry might ease the issue a litle bit. if you want to teach me what a friend is.... look at yourself first. i could still remember the day before i went off to bkk last year... i asked if you would want to meet me for a while cos i wanted to tell you something important.... but no... you actually choose your tv show rather than meeting me.... and i know u did finally wanted to meet up... cos i think you felt guilty... but think about it... what was your initial decision at the first place?? okay. thats it i have to say. to the person who's reading this... im telling this one last time, we are just friends. please don't care about me anymore cos i dont want you to do so. YOUR ACTIONS TAUGHT ME NOT TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THE OTHERS WHEN THE OTHER PARTY DOESN'T MAKE AN EFFORT. sorry. ps: go ahead and discuss with your good friends and people related to you how bad am i. thanks. |
| Thursday, January 19 |
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i barely have 6more weeks to graduation. NICE. life's just normal but been working a lot. i need to save loads of money! all i hope now is just not to get my NS enlistment letter any time soon. currently, im looking for a person who can clean my room. it is such in a sorry state now... bloody messy. i'll pay you 6bux/hr(haha!). i just don't have time to clean my room. always busy and on the move. only at home to sleep and see my parents. i'm in class right now. just bored to death with this lecturer that i've decided to blog. gtg, ciao. |
| Saturday, January 14 |
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[she's just a stranger] i boarded the train from town heading towards home today ard 7pm. it was packed. then there was this chinese lady whom caught my eye. i guessed she must be at least 21years old. cute and pretty average person. since the train was crowded, the packed area brought us upon each other standing face to face. i don't know why i felt those kind of warmth feeling when she stood infront of me. soon, the train was going down the west bound line... the crowd started to lessen. there was space for us to move away from each other. but noooo..... i just stood there. and she could have move aside to give space for herself. but noooo..... she stood still too. i felt like striking a conversation but noooo.... my guts shrinked and i was rather tired too. throughout the rest of the journey, we just stood infront of each other. trying to look away from each other but we did made a few eye contact. then, i had to alight. i glanced at her and i just smiled. and surprisingly, she did the same way too. goodbye sweet stranger, it was a pleasant silent journey i ever had in my life. |
| Friday, January 13 |
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[stand your ground and fight!] ay ay mates. everything's getting better. mum's recovering and will be discharge soon. i've got to say something though about the people working at the hospital. most of the nyp nurses are hot. and... one of the nyp nurses(she's quite hot too) who's taking care of my mum... is attracted to my younger brother! cos you know why? my uncle saw her always taking a peek at my bro whenever she attended to the patient beside my mum. haha! oh anyway people, go watch green street hooligans. its a nice show! i rated it 4/5 star. 1 star less was because i had to watch it on my laptop; it was so uncomfortable. lame. haha! and i find british english slang is damn cool. |
| Tuesday, January 10 |
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[shit happens] i knew something was going to be wrong. on saturday, my mum drop by ngee ann city just to see me at the roadshow. though she was sick, she still came down. she's been sick for a month. then it rained. so i went away from my duty for awhile. went to shop around with her at takashimaya. after 10mins, i went off cos i thought the rain must have stop by then. but it was still raining. so i went to search for my mum again. then 10mins again later i left cos by this time i thought that im gone from my duty for quite a while. after i left, i felt that, man, when is it going to be the next time that i will be able to accompany my mum to shop? SO, i went back to search for her... and this time, it was for 30mins. she even treated me for some snacks at auntie annies for the prietzel. after that day, her fever hit high up, vommited and can't eat. and today, she's admitted in the hospital. in bad condition but still waiting for results from the specialist. doctor said, the problem with her urinal tract has infected the kidney. and now, i really wonder, when i can really accompany her to shop again. i was really devastated today. MY TWO WEEK OLD KITTEN DIED OKAY. my brother is totally sad about it and i felt that i failed my duty to take care of the kitten and thus made my brothers very sad. i totally felt that i didnt not lead a good example to my brothers. i went to school totally moodless and yes, guys do cry okay. when im in this kind of state, please please please DO NOT TELL ME THAT YOU TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. its not logical at all. a person can never feel what another person is feeling. a person's feeling is always complicated when he's not in the right state of mind. yes, i do appreciate that you care. and i prefer solitude whenever im in this state cos it makes me feel better. dont ask me too many questions. im physically and emotionally tired. like i said on my previous entry, if only you care about maintaining friendship, you will know what a honest friend is when u feel down. it is really true that alot of friends laugh with you, but seldom they tear with you when you're tearing. till then, goodbye. memories of our kitten. we call him 'baby'   >this is when im feeding him with a bottle of milk. always cuddle him tightly to my chest.  >and he likes to sleep on top of me.  >
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| Sunday, January 8 |
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guess what. someone sms-ed me today and said something lke this... 'you don't look too good...must be tired?' then i told that person.... 'im perfectly in fine mood but just lazy to reply.' saying that felt so good you know? sometimes i felt that messaging a person online(msn) or sms.. and that person won't reply for god knows why or maybe that person prefers selective chats.... then you said such things back to a person.... WOW. sorry, i'm no longer a nice person who tried his best to maintain friendship when the other party just don't give a fuck. there's always a limit okay? so fuck you, fuck you and fuck you. for one fucking year. i felt so used by someone. i don't hate that person after what had happened... but just one thing i wanna ask. 'am i that horrible that you did all this to me?' maybe i expected too much... just give me less than 10years. i'll be out of this country, i hope. anyway, who gives a shit. fuck you. |
| Thursday, January 5 |
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[we all cheat okay] if im not wrong, when we entered Kindergaten 1... we were 5years old right? okay... so i have come to a conclusion, after 15years of education, to pass an exam, you basically need a brain cells that are reliable. If only humans have a slot whereby u can induce memory chips.... wouldnt it be great? and if teachers are very superbly lenient, they can close one eyes if students are interacting during exams. if such things happen, everybody can have their dreams fulfilled. you get what i mean? haha! anyway, poly life is great. i could still remember, during a final exam(during 2nd year) for a module called Logistic Communication(LCOM)..... there was only one invigulator. you know what happened? the lecturer was damn cool man. he know that this module was such a drag and we hate it to the core. he told us, 'ok, im going to toilet for 5minutes okay... i trust you all okay!' he grinned and left. power la! we all, for 5minutes, had a mini funfair la! damn shiok ah i tell you. then i got C+ grade for that module! hahahaha nice la! AND TODAY, i had purchasing management test. the lecturer did not do such thing la... but since he was alone... thats it la. i sat infront, when i turned back, i saw my classmates communicating! hahahahah nice la. then i also join in the fun la. exchange question papers where we wrote anwsers in it. all i can say, a student life rocks! its not that we dont have integrity... but the paper was HARD LA! the lecturer like one bloody sotong and the module is so dry. so fuck it la. and i still feel like becoming a DJ! lol! and one more thing..... LETS ALL CHIONG FOR Ministry Of Sound on 26th JANUARY OKAY? its thursday but i dont care. i wanna do something like this when there's school the next day, futhermore its my last semester. anyway, friends told me thursday night at MOS is R&B/Hip Hop night? okay, lets go! |
| Tuesday, January 3 |
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I just got back home from my 1st paper of the week. its really sucky to start the new year with exams. anyway, i have some thoughts to share. I strongly believe that money does buy happiness eventhough a lot of you will say that it can never happen. but im not saying that money is a necessity to bring happiness but indirectly, it does. well, think about it. if you come from a crappy family background where shortage of money is always the problem, you will feel shitty don't you? though there's still love around the house, but without money, can u survive in this modern city whereby MONEY IS EVERYTHING. unless if you're living in a village with your own farm and rice field, yes u can survive. think about this. when you're young and when your parents or relatives give you money, you'll be jumping around with happiness right? then when you grow up, you still do get pocket money from your parents that is enough to provide yourself food, clothes and entertainment. and then when you start to work, when its your pay day, you will see yourself laughing your way to the bank. without money, do you think you can support yourself with enough education, food and a proper clothes and a place to stay? the poor always want to be rich and successful one day and the rich will always want to be richer and richer. but those people who are with loads of money but they are not happy, well, too bad. if only humans are perfect. look at indonesia, where the percentage of people live in poverty is high. then the natural disasters in their country like, currently, the floods. if only their goverment do something about the places which are flood prone area. lives could be save. and this involves money. like i say, if only humans are perfect, there won't be any red tape process in the goverment agencies nor corruptions. and i thank god for what i am and for where i am. g'day folks. |
| Monday, January 2 |
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ah, its good to see my friends again. nice of them to drop by to have breakfast with me straight after they got back to s'pore. anyway, they told me 'ghetto night'(ladies night) at ZOUK in KL is awesome. wow! oh right, this week is a hectic week. its the COMMON TEST WEEK AND WHAT THE FISH IS MY SCHOOL THINKING? WHAT A WAY TO START THE NEW YEAR! i think they purposely want piss us off right? idiot. nevermind. its my last semester. i have 4 papers straight for 4days. then on the weekend, i have the roadshow with my school at Ngee Ann City... heard of the 'Xcapade!'? yeah, i'll be there. come by visit okay. and yeah, that faggot rockstar wannabe slyvester will be at the roadshow on saturday. asswipe. oh anyway, i have to get myself to start revising my notes. SOMEBODY threatened that she'll slap me if i don't get an A or B grade for this common test. siao liao... i sure die one. and if she's reading this.... and if i get an A or B grade, you must treat me lunch or dinner okay! |
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