| Saturday, December 31 |
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[bye and hello!] my last entry for 2005! well, i've got one thing to comment. i know i might sound contradicting when i asked about 'have you got your new resolutions?' on my last entry. so, pardon me for saying such things. why have new resolutions only when it comes to a new year? When i come to think about it, when everytime you did not achieve things that you've targetted, keep on trying. till you reach a dead end, then give it up and move on to other things within your capabilities. everyday is a brand new day. what's so special about new year? all i can think of the specialities about new year are: fireworks, shopping deals and parties. and yes of course, people can always take the opportunity to make this new year as a new embarkation of a new chapter in their life. i can't blame them. but i'd prefer to set targets or resolutions anytime i want. i have to confess, 2005 was a sinful year for me. i did many things that i'm not suppose to do. please pardon me god. i believe 2006 will be another and yet more challenging year for me. i'm graduating and then it's time for national slavery(NS)!! it feels like time pass by so fast. that it left a story about us. but now, there won't be anymore of your laughter, that could shine away the darkness in my heart. i still remember the days we laughed together, when told about our story. |
| Friday, December 30 |
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[life's a bitch] SIGH. my buddies must be having fun right now in KL..... i believe, at this hour they must be in some club in Jalan P. Ramlee or maybe Zouk...... they are partying and im stranded in this country. what the fish. never mind. in three or four months time, i hope my plans to go for a backpacking trip will go well! i dont know if i ever mention my plans before..... i'd like to go to KL for 1 or 2nights... then i will take a plane off from KLIA airport to Bangkok for a week or 2, and then drop by koh samui island for a few days... see how la my budget is. so i will work my ass off and save my money. 2005 is near to the end.... have u got a new resolutions for 2006? |
| Tuesday, December 27 |
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[i....wish you were here] my close buddies are leaving for KL on thursday to celebrate new year there, while im here in singapore. i'm sad that i can't join them. to come to think of it, i DID not step my foot in KL this year. unlike in 2004, i went there like 5times? sigh. oh crap, i think i have hypertension. everytime when i have 2 or more cups of coffee a day, my heart like beat damn fast la then my lungs and head feel kinda heavy. and that means i have too much caffiene/toxin in my body. i guess this year i'll be spending my new year alone. cos i'll be finishing work by 11pm at town on this saturday.. then i wanna head down to esplanade. who wants to come along do tell me yeah. 11.30pm @ esplanade. will there be fireworks?? hmm. today someone made my day. thank you, my sugar baby. you rock! you do something to, that i can't explain. will i be out of line, if i say,'I miss you.' i know, i will see you again, whether far or soon. but i need you to know, that i care..... i miss you. |
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[i slack, i rot and i regret.] what is wrong with me? i slept at 11pm last night, set my alarm at 3am(intended to study).. but i did not wake up. then i slept all the way till 12noon. NICE! anyway, today i've made up my mind. i gave up on something that i've held emotionally for almost a year. thats why i'm not in the mood to study nor do anything. all i did was taking care of my new kitten.... fed him milk ever hour and put him to sleep. can u imagine how nice it feels to hold a kitten which is smaller than the size of your palm? then you feed it with a bottle of milk while u grab him with the whole of your palm. |
| Sunday, December 25 |
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[i smoke, i drank. i'm suppose to stop but i can't][youngbloodz ft. mr magic] i was thinking, how long more can i stand this nightlife activity? when will i stop? the anwser lies in the future cos i don't know when i can anwser that. like what harith told me once, 'just one day... one day we will learn a lesson.' well, 2005 is ending soon. what's up with 2006? how would you want your life to be in 2006? its all your choice.... you control it. i headed down to town for 30mins last night. if you tell me to go orchard road with you anytime from now till new year, i'll say, 'you, alone, go have fun getting squashed by the crowd okay?' its OVERCROWDED la balls!! met my friends and we went to club. going to club with big group is fun! we went to coccolatte. damnit la, dancing for 3hours non stop is tiring balls. coccolatte was not bad la... but the music over at liquidroom is way way better. what say you? anyway, after 2005 then we chiong for MOS okay brothers? |
| Thursday, December 22 |
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how do you define happiness? below are the point of times when i was happy. - when i got a those big strap watch from my parents during my 7th years old birthday. - when i got a batman toy car which i still have it now around my room - when i got my you know those CRASH DUMMIES toys last time.... you pull back the toy car then release it... then when it bang into something... the dummies will fly and your toy car will be into pieces. then u fix it back within seconds. yeah, i had the motorbike one. cool shit. - i was always happy whenever i'm with my late grandma. - when my parents bring me to roadtrip holidays to malaysia and its island. - when i had my first crush. - when i played sepak takraw for the 'C' division boys and we got the fourth national position. then we got a treat from the school. they sent us to tasik kenyir for a holiday for 4days. =) - when i got my own room. - when i got my o level results(i was happy that i passed) =) - i'm happy when i hang out with my close friends(talib,bud,kin,harith,irwank,nuh) - then i went to Ngee Ann and met my wonderful classmates. - i made few trips to KL during 2004. - incubus concert was pure ecstasy. i went bonkers jumping and headbanging around with bud and harith during the concert. WE ROCK! - then i met this wonderful young lady whom i fell in love badly during 2004. i call her 'the minah'. - i start to club in late 2004. i'm always joyful whenever i club. the music, the crowd and the booze helps. - i made 2 trips to bangkok in 2005 where i made wonderful friends there. a beautiful country with a beautiful people. and i declared route66 is the best hip hop/r&b club in this region. - and the only thing that i remember being happy was last saturday when clubbing at liquidroom! - and last but not least, 'I GOT SOME!' geddit bothers? (personal jokes) haha! here, take a look at classmates below. taken at fish and co before we went to club. and i love my coat! hahaha! 
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| Wednesday, December 21 |
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[don't ever let life pass you by] trance music will make your ears bleed if you hear it over and over again. but i like. HAHA! i've been listening to this one trance music over and over. it just gives me the vibes.. you know those kind of feelings that makes u wanna be happy and forget the past.. its cool. anyway, life's been okay. starbucks is cool. i'm super worried about next two weeks. its common test week and right after my common test days are over, i have a roadshow at Ngee Ann City, Takashimaya on 7-8 january 2006(AND MY T-SHIRTS ARE NOT READY YET!!!!!! WTF!) anyway, anyone heading to MOS this saturday? So pardon me while I burst into flames I've had enough of the world And it's people's mindless games So pardon me while I burn And rise above the flame Pardon me, pardon me I'll never be the same |
| Tuesday, December 20 |
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[a night to remember, a morning to forget] here's the pictures that we took last weekend during the bbq.  sigh, i just cannot believe that this is my last semester. and half of my last semester is already gone. i'm bored at home! and i just got to know that my youngest brother is entering JJC for his first three months?? wtf? on last friday i was having fun at ECP... while i sat by the beach and looked into the sky looking at the planes..... and i wished i'm in one of those flights leaving this country. anyway, look at this picture below.... i took this picture while i was at NYP organising . it was when i was working with NTUC INCOME. that bottle was infact a leftover from last night event cos i found it under a table! 
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| Sunday, December 18 |
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[go dj, thats my dj!] two straight days of pure entertainment. friday night i had a bbq with the year 1s and year 3s... i dont know what happened to the year 2s. anyway, it was boring cos there wasn't enough food! but the fun begin when we started to play a game with a forfeit... played it by the beach was fun. javier was the joker of the day. that faggot played the forfeit game till he got pissed drunk. he was such a joker that he humped a lampost. HAHAHAHA! then when the girls left, there was around 8 guys..... and we played this game called 'throwing a person into the sea, one at a time'... knn. and i was the last one to be thrown cos i ran into hiding halfway through.... but i know i will still be thrown. so when they got to surround me... i surrendered, stripped into boxers and there i was being thrown into the sea by 8 faggots. bloody hell you guys. hahaha. on saturday night, it was the party night. i had dinner at fish&co @ glasshouse with 11ppl(my classmates)... then on we headed to liquidroom @ MS and met my friends there too.... so all happy happy party together. liquid room rocks yo! somehow the DJ there makes me feel that im in my favourite club in bangkok! geez, we played some forfeit game at the club too! and 'I GOT SOME'! (its a personal joke) lol! damn, i got it twice! haha! happy like spider!! oh anyways, happy 2 weeks of study break!!!! have fun! |
| Tuesday, December 13 |
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[lost and found] you know, last saturday was my bazaar thingy... wah damn siong ah in the morning. i had to wake up like at 5.30am and went to the market to do some grocery shopping... then prepare the food. and guess what, i made 70over sandwiches..... 25packet of Fried Mee..... JC made ard 20packet of Fried Bee Hoon and ard 30 brownies. and you know what.... i sold like around only 6packet of Fried mee and NONE OF MY SANDWICH WAS SOLD. SO MUCH FOR MAKING THE SANDWICH WITH LOTS OF LOVE. HAHAHA! i know it was a waste of money... but my heart aches because alot of food was wasted. money can always be earned... but my parents taught me not to waste nor throw away food. i feel so bad.... sigh. but my other stalls which was selling accessories was rather good. =) i would like to thank my friends who came down to support me. anyway, when i was on the way home, i saw a notice at the void deck. the handwriting was familiar... then as i read through, i noticed that it was my brother who wrote the notice paper cos it says 'A MALE CAT IS MISSING.........' I WENT, 'HOLY SHIT, GARY IS MISSING!!! DAMN IT!!' mum told me gary went missing since noon and my family been searching for it till i got back home at ard 9pm. my youngest brother went around the block for 2-3hours searching for him. after i settled down, i went searching the block. within 5mins, i found him! he was hiding 2storeys below my house. he was hiding under a rack of flower pot. thank god i found him... =) |
| Thursday, December 8 |
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Oh please, if you are free this saturday on 10 December from 11am-7pm... please drop by Clementi Ave 2 nearby block 356. There's a opening ceremony for a BEACH VOLLEYBALL in the Clementi neighbourhood! cool huh? and... besides that they have some bazaar with ard 15stalls. and my business mentor was kind enough to invite me get a stall there and sell stuffs. so, i've decided to have two stalls. i'm selling food(brownies, sandwiches, fried mee and fried beehoon) and i'm selling accessories (earrings, necklace, caps, handbags and beer singlets). if you guys come down, especially the girl, its going to be a treat for you all. for the sake of coming down to support me, i will sell you guys 4pairs of earrings at 10bucks only. (usual price 3pairs for 10bucks). and the food, i'm preparing it especially the sandwiches. trust me, i can make a good sandwich and make u to eat more cos i make it with lots of love. LOL! . anyhow, i'm making 3 kinds of sandwiches. come down okay! =) |
| Wednesday, December 7 |
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[when you get what you want, but it is not what you need] sometimes when you want to know the truth, and when u you get know it, suddenly you feel that the truth is not what you really need. all you need is just honesty from that person right from the start. am i still hurt about the conversation i had last friday night. ='( and my mum's condition is worrying me. ='( |
| Tuesday, December 6 |
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[you have been the one for me] on last sunday morning, i was at sembawang park with my friend. we were playing cards under the tree then suddenly, a bird shit dropped in the middle of us. almost hit my friend's jeans. guess what, the next thought that came to our mind. GOT LUCK, LET'S BUY 4D! I didn't buy, but my friend did, bought 3 numbers only..... 3017, 3107 and 8575. haha! then, i was a yishun's market. i was walking around... and i found 2 pieces of $10 on the floor! what a luck. =) but my friend did not win any of the numbers. when i look back at my past entries(those in 2004)... when i used to bet on soccers(singapore pools). when i have extra money, wanted to gain more money. But in the end, i still lose more than what i've saved. but i bet small amount only... its the thrill lor that makes me wanna bet. You bet on ur favourite team. you've been supporting them your whole life.... so when you bet, when your favourite team wins, its a win-win situation(you are happy cos u get extra money and your team win). but now, i will never bet anymore. i do not want to make it as a habit and a sin. my dad keep telling me, 'cari duit yang halal supaya hidup di ini dunia dan akhirat selamat.' =) |
| Sunday, December 4 |
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[$80 for private ambulance??] i finished bathing at 7pm after a whole afternoon sleep.... when i went out.. my dad gave me a serious urgent face. 'Your mum needs to go to the hospital now!!' wah... i panic lo... i ran to my mum... she was really in pain lor, she was screaming in pain... and at that sight, instantly my cheeks was wet. it hurts to see such scene. my mum got history of back pain. i called the 1-777 for non emergency ambulance.... and they said i need to pay $80bucks for the service of ECONS Ambulance and have to wait for at least 30minutes...... D'OH! 4years or 5years ago, same thing happened to my mum. she got a really bad strained back muscle... so she can't move and i called the ambulance... and it was FOR FREE, thank you SCDF ambulance. bugger, they actually outsource the ambulance services to private ones. so, being unhappy for that $80(not that i paid, but my dad did).... i went up to the ambulance services counter at NUH and made an enquiry. hahaha. so they said, if i called up 995, for emergency case... its free. if non emergency case... they will bill you $150. WTF!!! so what do they consider emergency case?? they said something like heart attack la.. bla bla bla.... and its considered as emergency case. but how about my mum's case? i deemed it as a emergency case... its my MUM DAMNIT and my dad paid $80 and have to wait for 30minutes for the private ambulance! fuck the goverment's policy on the ambulance services. fucking hell. =) anyway, my mum's fine... doctor said there's a stone on her urinary tract... dunno la what it is. she have to go back for further check up and appointments. i wish her for a speedy recovery. |
| Saturday, December 3 |
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[james blunt - goodbye my lover] there's this point of time you will just break down in the middle of the night.. been trying very hard not to be hurt again. i'm really hurt, but i just can't cry. i don't really wish to blog about this.... but i can't help it. im just...... sad. im not okay, trust me. can somebody please help to fix me? james blunt - goodbye my lover Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep. And I will bare my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet. Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me. I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow. I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow. thanks tizi for introducing me this wonderful emo song i ever had in my life. cheers. |
| Thursday, December 1 |
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i swear that i will kill the person/organisation that tell me to do a survey/questionaire. RIGHT. fuck mindef questionaire man... i think i shade like over 200 circles for the survey.... you how tiring it is? anyway, i had my NS medical checkup today with peh thong kiat a.k.a javier. that faggot was late 25mins... made me waste my money only on cab fare and mrt. bugger. anyway, before i went for the check up..... whatever class of PES they put me in, it doesnt matter to me.... but later, when the the check up ended, i was shocked............. i got a PES A. I expected a PES B or C... bcos of my tummy. lol!! i'd like to qoute this from the medical officer.... 'its going to be a very fast one.... please pull down your pants and your boxers.... and then cough!!' hahahahaha! anyway, remember weeks ago, i talked about a friend whom migrated away.... she contacted me just now... and dedicated this song to me... some indonesia band song.... called Semua Tentang Kita by Peter Pan. Waktu terasa semakin berlalu Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah Saat kita berduka, saat kita tertawa Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama Ceritakan semua tentang kita -end- the reason why she dedicated it to me was because.... simply i was there for her always when she was down....and the time and laugther we had was great. but she had to run... run away from her problems and never come back. all these are memories and a friendship that cannot be bought. but i am happy that she's happy elsewhere and happy that i've done my job as a friend. =) |
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