Wednesday, January 26

my right eyebag still not okay, there's pus..EEEE yeah, really EEE. i played soccer with bud and his SP friends at saint wilfrid today and its freaking hot....lucky i bathed after the game, my body was very heaty. and i borrowed my bro's nerdy but trendy black framed specs. cool~ i wanna get a zero-degree specs la... just to protect my eyes. its nice travelling alone from the west to the north-east of SINGAPORE. haha! i took the NEL back, then i skipped outram and went to harbourfront and took 188 back home JUST to escape the peak hours where u cant get seats on the mrt. i need to sit and yeah i got A SEAT IN THE BUS! hahaha. alright, i think im not really okay at all tonight. i really need someone to guide me. i feel very lost and confused at this very moment. i feel so... my goodness, i think im gonna breakdown anytime.... do i deserve this kind of life? well, i know there's other people who's life is much worse than me. ohwell, we humans will never stop complaning right? sigh, it took me 19years to realise this, i've been single all my life BUT i know im not lonely. i realise that my weakness is that i care too much. btw, how does it feel to be waiting by the phone for a few hours for a phonecall that u're expecting? if its for once, it doesnt matter, but what if it always happen? well, i dont mind waiting cos i've been waiting all my life for that very special day for me. well, waiting is part of ur daily life. you're waiting for tomorrow, u're waiting for alot of things to happen today and tomorrow. so does it matter if u have to wait? no. but why am i complaning? i dont know, its human nature i guess. i just felt tears on my cheeks. damn. life is so sucky now. and, i miss her badly.

Izan blogged @ 1/26/2005 10:51:00 PM

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