Sunday, January 16

hey you all. remember i talked about inter-racial relationship like few days ago? well yeah, it suck when you come to think that it will end because of religious barriers and stuff. i just had a conversation with a friend just now. well, its exactly the same problem what my good friend had last year. its such a pity that it had to end. but its good if you are mentally& emotionally prepared to break up cos it wont hurt that bad. anyway, i hope i did something good tonight by consoling lina. cheer up and be cool aight. i was online in my mobile messenger while on the way back home from work. as you know i can get nauseated easily while on bus/car. i was chatting with someone and i offended her without noticing it cos i really felt like puking but at the same time trying to keep the conversation on.... how foolish and selfish i am. sigh. i jus wanna say sorry. believe me, im in a process of changing my attitude. if i was the old izan, i will be brooding over old stuff. There's no use to talk about it two or three days later and trying to clarify things up. it should be done on the spot during the argument. i think im growing a lil bit more mature as days pass by. just want to tell you all, i've learnt alot from year 2004. SERIOUSLY, i learnt alot. believe me im still keeping my 5th resolution for 2005 which is to stop this emoshit in me. have faith in me aight? but shit happens sometimes rite people? =) be cool with when it happens. im so sorry to anyone whom i've offended. the song below really suits my mood and how i feel. good night world. Nelly - Over And Over(feat. Tim McGraw) Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I cant keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again And I cant take it yeah I cant shake it Nooo I cant wait to see you Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes And its a shame that we got to spend our time Being mad about the same things Over and over again About the same things Over and over again Ohh But I think shes leaving Ooh man shes leaving I dont know what else to do (I Cant go on not loving you) Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again And I cant keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah Cause its all in my head I think about it over and over again I replay it over and over again yeah And I cant take it yeah I cant shake it Nooo I remember the day you left I remember the last breath you took right in front of me When you said that u would leave I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything But I see clearly now And this choice I made keep playing in my head Over and over again Playing my head Over and over again Ohh I think shes leaving Ooh man shes leaving I dont know what else to do (I Cant go on not loving you) Now that I have realized that Im going down From all this pain you have put me through Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh I CANNOT GO ON NOT LOVING YOU.

Izan blogged @ 1/16/2005 02:09:00 AM

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