Friday, December 17

i didnt do anything much today except to school and work. i wasnt suppose to work, but i took over some1. anyway, today i was caught by the school warden for WEARING slippers to school. it was funny how i tried to escape from her... we were having a 5minutes break, then all of us went to the nearest vending machine and toilet. i was about to eat my chocolate bar when suddenly the warden appeared. i quickly went inside the toilet... waited for like 3minutes and went out. tried to sneak out, but she was already waiting for me outside. i couldnt do anything but faked a smile at her while my classmate were laughing their ass off behind her. buggers... hahaha. actualli she caught me before... that was 2 semester ago and that time she let me off also. but i think she forgot my face. so she let me off again just now. and she said if she catch me again next time, she will send me a 'love letter' and another time will be a $40 fine and a counselling session. ridiculous rite? wear slipper to school and if kanna caught twice, then go for counselling. weirdos. hahaha. its good to know alot of people and i still want to get to know alot of people. seriously, i hate it when girls say this to me,'izan, im not good for you. there's always another girl out there who is better than me...'. i'll say fuck that shit man. if there's some other girl better out there than her, why would i think of dating her at the first place right? and am i that blind to date out a 'bad' girl? come la, its my choice. if you dont want me, just tell me straight to the face. i'll shut the fuck up and fuck off. and i hate the word which goes like this, 'what you dont know wont hurt.' ahh this is more worse. thats call cheating. cheating yourself and cheating the person who have no idea that he or she was cheated. i think its one of the most greatest sin. nobody knows what im going to do with my life for now. im not going to tell and im not going to even tell you a clue... only one person knows about it. =) and seriously, i dont feel like blogging for now. maybe i shall take a rest from it. there's nothing else for me to talk about. my life is so boring now. i dont wish to complain about my sad life... im not some attention seeker. maybe when there's something new, then i'll update this blog. i just made a song 3days ago. i dont know what to name it. can you all do me a favour and try to give a name for my new song yah. leave the title on my tag yah. thank you. izan - this heart, it feels so heavy. burden by emotional feelings, it makes me think, thinking if i should give up. rejection is not the turning point. its just a point where i should get up, stand on my own feet and face the world. yeah, its a sick world. we are nothing but just human who seek love every now and then and the fact is that love is revolving around us everyday. eversince i knew you, i can count how many times u asked me how am i. it seems that you dont care. assumptions sucks but yeah, i cant help to think it that way. you're always leaving me clueless, thats when assumption arises. i wish that there's never an end to this. please dont leave me alone. i wish i could run away from this but the thoughts of you leaving me, its haunting me every second. no matter what, you will always be my boo. till then. ciaoz~

Izan blogged @ 12/17/2004 01:11:00 AM

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