Sunday, December 12

bonjour! yesterday soccer at jurong east was a waste of time for me. it rained before we came and the court was wet. my schedule on friday was very tight. school from 9am-5pm is just so tiring. anyway, this is my new layout. its light greyish. i know its a boring colour... and by the way, the theme is about moving on... so yah, moving on is always boring and depressing. i thought i wanted to make my own blog but i couldnt manage to do one... so i took a template from blogskins.com... and edit here and there... the text above 'if u wanna call it an heartache..bla bla bla..' i designed that maself. ignore the grammar mistake. its suppose to be 'a heartache'. i'll get it corrected when im free. =) as usual, it took me few hours to do this editing. i was thinking about my future. i've decided to get married by 25. lol. i know its ridiculous to think about it... but yah, i live only for once. wanna get married, have kids when im 27. by the time my children become 25, im like 52yrs old.. i wanna see my grandchildren. like i say, i live only for once. i wanna experience this. i guess i have my future planned out roughly. finish NS by 23yrs old. i'll get a job with my diploma. dont worry about my degree. im gonna take it as a private candidate while working. ah you know, education is a lifelong journey. you are always never too old to study. but i think NS is really a waste of time. dont you think so? well, all this is just a plan. i hope it works. insyallah. i really love her. i hope it goes the same to her. yeah, im really a sick person with unstable emotions. if only i can get what i want. im such a dick. its broken and can't be fixed. till i get whatever i want, then i'll be a happy person. i want......YOU KNOW DAMN RIGHT WHAT I WANT! =) till then. au revoir!

Izan blogged @ 12/12/2004 02:37:00 AM

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