Tuesday, November 9

i was painting my room and i had deep thoughts about how am i going to manage to become a good boyfriend if ever one day that happens. im still in process of painting, just waiting for it to dry and do a double coating again(and still got alot more to go). if ever one day i were to commit myself in a relationship, i'd take it as a serious one. to me, honesty & loyalty is the best policy. i just need trust and she should never take advantage of the trust i've given to her. ah you know, trust is very hard to gain from each party. once broken, thats it boy. things will never be the same again. its like a glass, once broken, even how well u try to patch up the broken pieces, it will never look the same cos there's visible cracks. ah yah, i wont hold any barrier between her and any other guy friends she has. i dont want her just to stop her quest for having new friends because of me. it wont be fair for her. maybe if one day she meet a better person than me, why not? but its going be a REAL TEST for me to handle. there's a saying, if u really love the girl and if she wants to go, let her go. well, i think thats pure bullshit. love is about effort and care u put in on that girl. you shouldnt give up halfway. are you going to waste all that effort u put on and just let it go? come on, i've never meet a person who's that crazy to just let it go... and i've only seen it in some stupid fucked up hindustani movies. those crazy motherfuckers. hmm, thats all i've to say and yah, im fucking down now. i wont be blogging until the day i feel peace at mind and feel like typing. 2more days to deepavali. happy dipshit to all you shitheads. fuck you smelly people. you smelly people are always crowding our fucking MRTs on every fucking sunday. fuck you all. Lost Prophets - Last Train Home To every broken heart in here Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared She told me that it's all part of the choices that you make Even when you think you're right You have to give to take But there's still tomorrow Forget the sorrow And I can be on the last train home Watch it pass the day As it fades away No more time to care No more time, today But we sing If we're going nowhere Yeah we sing If it's not enough And we sing Sing without a reason To ever fall in love I wonder if you're listening Picking up on the signals Sent back from within Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here.

Izan blogged @ 11/09/2004 10:34:00 PM

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